Its been a month since my night with Peeta. Since then, I've broken up with Gale and kicked him out. It wasn't easy though. I literally had to call in the Peacekeepers to drag him out. He obviously wasn't happy about it. I'm starting to think he did every that he did to me for control over me. Don't get me wrong, I know he loves me. Its just that he enjoyed controlling me. I can't really explain it. I just know.
I had Prim keep quiet about what Gale did to me and not even tell Mom. I know I gave her another burden to carry, but I don't want people what happened and I'm not ready for Mom to know. I'll tell her someday, but not yet.
I'm on my way to Mom's now, actually, but not to tell her that. This is scarier. I've been puking a lot lately. Especially in the mornings
Peeta thinks I got the stomach virus that's been going around. He's been worried about me so he sent me to my mom's to be sure. I don't think it's a virus, though. My period is late, too, so I think I know what's wrong. I've been through this before. I'm going to my mom's to see if I'm pregnant.
I'm scared. I don't want this to happen again. I don't think I can handle it. I walked into Mom's house.
"Mom?" I called.
She poked her bedroom door
"Katniss?" She asked, surprised. She walked toward me. "You know Prim's at school right?"
"I know. I-I'm here for the same reason as last time, Mom"
Her eyes went wide.
"Your not… again? She couldn't even say the word.
"I don't know." I answered. "That's why I'm here."
"I heard you broke up with Gale though. Who's is it?"
"Lets see if I am first." I told her.
She nodded and went to her medical cabinet. I bought her a bunch of medical supplies when I came back form the Games. A certain type of one has been very useful to me.
Mom pulled out a pregnancy test and silently handed it to e. I went into the bathroom to use it. When I was done, I wait for one of the longest 15 minutes of my life, tied only with the first time I did this. When it was finally ready with the results, I took a deep breath. Remember, blue means I am, pink means I'm not.
I looked down at it. Its….
"Blue." I whispered and put my head in my hands. How do I tell Peeta? He react like Gale did. He saw Jake as something to use to keep me with you, to control me. Peeta's not like that. He'll see this baby as what it is: a helpless life that we have to take care of, have to protect.
But we won't be able to protect it. Like we can't truly protect Jake. The capital is putting all their resources together as it is so he can die in his Hunger Games.. What will they do when they find out that me and Peeta, The Star Crossed Lovers of the 74th Hunger Games, are having a baby together.
Killing a child of one victor? That's pretty much a yearly thing for them. A child of two of the most famous victors alive? It'd been like Christmas to them. I cried into my hands. Oh god, no.
"Katniss?" Mom opened the door. She saw me crying and hesitatingly hugged me. Surprisingly, I let her.
"I-I know I let you down in the past," She began. "but I want to help you through this. If you give me that chance, I promise I won't let you down again."
"Mommy?" I said through my tears.
"Yes, honey?"
I told her everything. That Peeta's the father and all my fears for this child. She just held me and listened. When I was done, she spoke.
"I wish I could tell you that you're being irrational, but your not. The capitol will probably plan something for this child, too, and I don't see how it can be prevented. All I can tell you is that you have your dad's strength so I know you'll make it through."
Just then, Prim came in.
"Mom, I'm here for lunch-." She stopped as she saw the scene before her. "What's going on?"
I sighed and gave her a sad smile.
"Me and Peeta are going to have a baby. I just found out." I told her."
"Are you ok?"
"I'll be fine," I said. "but I have to I have to get home now.
How am I going to tell Peeta?
