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Simeon X Y/n Angst

There's a secret that you've kept for as long as you've gained your freedom.

A secret that weighs your heart down and makes breathing unbearable.

A secret that you swore you'd never tell a soul.

You where sat in your room, back against the door to prevent any of the 7 brothers barging in, head in your hands.

Just moments ago, you had been sitting downstairs with the brothers, having a lovely conversation about children sparked by the recalling of the incident with the magic duplicating apple and the little D, when suddenly asmodious brung up the point of your excellent parenting skills, and how it had looked liked you'd done it all before.

You had played it off as you helping to raise your younger siblings. Then they brung up the point that Lucifer had helped raised them all, yet even he didn't help as much with the many child like imps as you did, and they pushed when they noticed your hesitation to answering.

Of course they had to push! Why wouldn't they!

But, it's not like they new what about the question set you off, so, you supposed it wasn't entirely their fault.

Still, now you had these awful memories and a heart wrenching secret bubbling in your mind, surfacing all the emotions you'd burried alongside them.

And so you cried.

You wanted to tell someone. you needed to tell someone.
Your heart was so full of ache that pushing it down once again would only make it worse. and you knew this.

But who could you tell? This wasn't a light secret, it may very well cause people to look at you with discust, the friends you've grown so attached to may very well avoid you because of this terrible secret. And if the secret got out? Oh god.

And so you cried.

A soft ding from your phone broke you from your thoughts, pulling your attention to it.

You picked it up and turned it on. Simeon.

You could go to him, couldn't you? He was an angel afterall, so he wouldn't tell anyone, and he was a very forgiving, open person, considering he has gotten along pretty well with most of the demon brothers.

You unlock your phone and began texting him.

Simeon: Hello Y/n!

Y/n: hey Simeon. Can I come round? I need someone to talk to.

Simeon: Sure, did something happen?

Y/n: yeah, you could say that. I'll be there soon.

Simeon: Alright, get here safely.

You sigh turning off your phone and putting on a jacket and shoes. You walk downstairs and to the door "I'll be back in a bit" you inform them vaguely before leaving, not waiting to check if they heard you.

You knock on the door Simeon stayed at, greeted by the angel himself. "Y/n! You're here, come in!" He stood aside to let you in, closing the door behind you.

"Hey Simeon. Luke and Solomon aren't here are they?" "No, they're not. What's wrong?" He frowned worriedly, ussuring you to sit down besides him.

You sit down, looking to the side, with a frown. "I.. I want to tell you something.. but.. promise me that once I do, you won't see me any differently..?" You look at him, eyes a silent plea.

He frowns and nodded "of course I wouldn't y/n" "promise?" "Promise" he pinky swore, which caught a small chuckle from you.

"Alright.. where do I start.." you mumbled

"When.. when I was younger, late teens give or take, I.. I lived with a.. bad person.. and he'd do... Unspeakable things to me.." you stumbled on your words, pausing to take a breath and hold back memories soring to the front of your mind. Simeon nodded for you to continue, face full of focused attentiveness.

"And.. one day, he had managed to get me pregnant, and refused to get me a pill to, well, give me a miscarriage." You had to take a deep breath before continuing, slumping back and staring to the light bulb as the few flies flying around it.

"He made me birth it. And-" your voice became shaky "and I held it for the first time, i- I should've been filled with a mother's love, a-an instant connection only a mother and infant could ever had but- but the moment I heard it's cries, I just, it scared me, looking at that child, it looked just like him, and-" your speaking spead up, voice cracking and becoming high pitch.

"S-simeon, t-the first thing I did- i-i killed it Simeon" you almost wailed, curling up into a ball "m-my own child, a-and I killed it!" You sobbed into your knees, biting your lip in a failed attempt to muffle yourself.

Simeon stared in shock before his face fell to pity. He pulled you into him, letting you sob into his shoulder.

"I-im a monster aren't I?" You croaked "e-even mother's love didn't stop me" you sobbed into him, holding onto him as though he'd disapear the moment you let go.

He frowned, rubbing your back. "No, you're not a monster. Fight or flight instincts will always win over a mother's love. That's how I see it."

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ACK GOD BLESS HIS SOUL-
Sorry for the angst- idea just came to my head :D