Please Stay! //~Baku x Todo

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Todoroki POV

I'm discharged the next day, but not allowed to go to school yet, which means I'm just sitting around in my room, doing nothing.
It's been like this for the last 3 days.
I'm really bored and don't have anything to do.
I've been sleeping a lot, which hasn't been easy, since I keep having nightmares.

I've also been thinking about what happened in the hospital.
I still don't understand why Bakugou said all that.
Since I don't want him to be my friend. I want him to be my boyfriend.

I can be pretty shy,
But when I'm with him, I don't hesitate.

I've never felt so happy, like I do, when I'm just sitting in his room and talking with him about random stuff.

I miss that.
And him.

I don't know if it will help, if I try to talk to him again.

Since I've seen him a few times, I know he's still wearing the tag.
I hung out with the others a little and they told me, he's in a very bad mood and barely leaves his room. They keep asking what happened, that's why I'm avoiding them.

Oh man. It's late.
I better go to sleep.
Let's hope I have a nice dream for once.

I lay down and slowly fall asleep.

~dream~

I wake up in my room.
Alone.
It's weird.
I've gotten so used to waling up in his arms.

I feel something stinging and something warm, dripping down my arm.
It's a familiar feeling, yet it feels unusual.

When I look at it, I see that all of my old wounds have opened up.

''How did this happen?"

I go into the bathroom, to wash off the blood.
The familiar burning of the wounds, which is caused by the contact with water, is agonizing.

Then, I suddenly feel the familiar stinging on other parts of my body.
My legs
My hands
My neck
My arms
My face

Everywhere are cuts.
They hurt and blood pours out.
There's no stopping it.
I the mirror, I see the other half of my hair turning red from the wounds on my face and head.
In the back of my head, a taunting laugh and a voice.
An oddly familiar, but unknown voice.
Telling me, I deserve this.

More and more cuts appear out of nowhere. They are deep. Very deep. So deep, the bleeding can't be stopped.

~~

I shoot up, in total panic. I touch my face and start crying. It hurts. It still feels like there are more and more cuts appearing.

"Stop! Please"
I say sobbing and get up.

I can't stop crying, eventhough I try to tell myself it was just a dream and try to breathe calmy, I just can't stop.

I get up and stagger out of my room, letting the wooden door silently, fall shut behind me and open the door of the room next to mine.
I walk in and let that door fall shut again. Suddenly someone gets up out of the bed, looking at me confused.

"It wont stop!"
I say sobbing

"Hey! It's okay. Just...sit."
Katsuki says and helps me walk over to his bed.

"It wont stop! Help me!"
I say crying

"You have to fucking snap out of it"
He says and carefully puts a hand on my shoulder.

"It's okay...you had a nightmare again, didn't you?"
He adds

I nod

"Well, I'm here now, so it'll be all okay. You're not dreaming anymore and you wont get hurt"
He says slowly, stroking my hair

"But they hurt"
I sigh quietly, having calmed down a little.

"What hurts?"

"The cuts"

"Where?"

"My face"

"There are none on your face. It's beautiful as ever."

"Don't say that!"
I say.
When he said it, just nonchalantly like that, I calmed down. A lot. I was completely ripped my out of the spiral of panic I was going down.

Just now, I realize, I actually came here, without thinking about it.
Out of reflex.

~~
Bakugou POV

"I-I'm really sorry I came here. I wasn't thinking. Sorry I woke you up"
He says

Ah shit
I knew it
He has that really fucking cute look on his face.

''So adorable"
I mumble

"What?"

"I mean...I was awake anyway. I slept all day, so yeah..."

"Why?"

"Dunno. Just felt like it.'

"Are you bothered by what happened in the hospital?"
He asks

I realize I'm still standing infront of him.
I plop onto the floor, sitting infront of him and looking up at him.

"I mean...yeah. I couldn't punch you back. That sucked."

"Stay serious"
He says and nudges my hand with his foot.

"I... just...don't know, man."

"If you can't say it, I'll go first."
He says and I nod

"I'm sorry I dumped you. I have feelings for you, which I'm confident aren't feelings I'd have for a friend."
He continues

"So. What about you?"
He adds

"I.............'m not gonna talk about this."

"Yes you are."

"No I'm not"

"Yes. You are"

"You're a meanie"

"So be it."

"Okay... I... guess like you a lot. To be exact...I fell in love with you a while ago. I'm real sorry I friend zoned you. I guess I was just- no nevermind."

"Scared? Anxious? Worried?"

''Yeah. Whatever. I guess"

"Yeah, well so am I. But it's even scarier if you aren't there. With me."
He says and sits on the floor too

"Yeah. Same here"
I say and smile.

He comes closer and crawls on my lap, then puts his arms around my neck.
I kiss him and he pulls me closer.
He is practically clinging to me. It feels like I'm being sucked in.

A tear runs down his cheek and falls onto mine.
I pull away and wipe it away.

"You're a real crybaby."
I say and kiss him again.

My hand slides under his shirt amd I pull it off carefully.
I kiss his neck, when I leave a hickey, I can hear him groaning, while suppressing a moan.

When I open an eye, I can see his arm. It's covered in scars.
I pull away and kiss them gently.

"I don't care how fucked you are."
I say and caress his cheek

"I really love you Bakugou"
He says, leaning his forehead against mine.

I pull out the tag from under my shirt and hold it up

"Yeah. I know"
I say and grin

He shakes his head and laughs a little
"You're a dumbass"

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Yes this is me actively trying to write smut. Your welcome.