Ten Days To My Death

The Second Day (Pt. 2)

And everytime after I push Amanda away a pang of guilt fills me, but what could I do? She claimed that I was her best friend but she wasn't my best friend. I didn't have a friend.
"... Hey, listen to class (听课！）!" My Chinese teacher, Mr Tey boomed. I sighed and nodded, taking out my textbook before starting to draw on it.
"What are you drawing?" I heard someone say, and I almost jumped when I saw Chace sitting beside me.
"Oh.. Um Killua from Hunter x Hunter. Its an Anime. Since when did you move here? I thought you were talking to Amanda?" I question and frown as I struggle with drawing the hands.
"Oh, I saw you sitting alone so I thought I would change my seat. I asked Mr Tey of course." Oh. That's a nice gesture, I guess. I let out the breath I had been holding once I  had successfully drawn the hands. I took out a few colour pencils: 4 different shades of blue, 1 white, and 1 grey. I started colouring im peace, drawing definitely was something I enjoyed.
"Hey, I love it! You're so good at this! " I shriek and cover my drawing but sigh when I find out its just Chace.
"Thanks" I don't stop myself from smiling. Its been so long since I last smiled, months, maybe a year. Chace just has a way of making me smile. We start chatting and soon, Chinese class is over. They say time flies when you're having fun, and that might be true when I'm with Chace?
"Okay, you've gotta teach me how to draw someday." Chace says and stares at my drawing of Killua with his godspeed mode.
I nod. Even though I'm with Chace, it doesn't change that I hate talking.
"Hey, you okay? You're... Being quiet." Our eyes meet for the first time and his pupils dilate. But he looks... Worried?
"Oh, no I'm fine I was just thinking I guess" I smile to assure him that I'm fine. Totally not thinking about what I would feel when I die.
"That's good" He still seemed, I don't know, sad? so I decide to ask him if he's fine.
"Um, my turn to ask, are you okay? I don't know, you seem sad or something."
"Oh uhm. Yeah. I mean, yes. Yes I'm fine. I'm okay. Yes." he stutters, and I get even more worried.
"Dude, what's wrong? Seriously tell me." I say seriously. He is the first person that I have been comfortable with in years and I would do anything in my last 9 days to help him. In any way I can.
"You won't judge?"
"What? No? Why would I?"
"Um- so um my sister suicided a few years back, her schoolmates bullied her for not talking and I guess she had enough. The last day I saw her face, that expression, being quiet, it looked so much like you. It reminded me of her and.. I guess I just missed her. She was my best friend...and the best sister of course" His eyes are glossy.
"Look, I'm sorry. I'm glad you told me though, I can relate with he-" I cover my mouth and pretend to cough. I was not about to tell my only friend that I was going to end my life. He might flip. I hate backflips. And front flips.
"Relate with what?" his eyes remain glossy and my heart sinks at the sight. He looks really sad, his voice is shaky.
"Um, nothing. Its fine!" I reply hastily. I look up to meet his eyes, hoping that somehow I could comfort him? Or something.
"O-oh ok.." his voice cracks and his eyes look even shinier. Just that it's tears.
"Please don't cry I'm sorry!" I rush forward and pat his back, but it didn't make things better and he turned away as soon as tears started streaming down his cheeks. He starts to run down the hallway and I find myself chasing him.
I finally catch up with him when he turns into an empty classroom with nowhere to run.
"Hey, I'm so sorry I didn't know- I didn't- I didn't know you would be so affected dude!" I cry out and rush forward to pat his back again, to comfort him if I could even if it meant physical contact.
Suddenly, he turns to face me and wraps his arms around me, his head on my shoulder. His tears don't stop and I return the hug, my heart shattering at his sad sight, but my whole body warms up from the hug.
"Please don't cry... Tell me what's wrong." I feel my eyes soften as his eyes meet mine for the third time. He looks so vulnerable I might cry myself. (lol what)
He takes a deep breath and tries to speak. "I- it's I don't- I don't know once I thought- thought about- m-my sister I g-got even- even sadder I'm sorr-im sorry" he speaks between sobs and then puts his head on my shoulder again, his eyes still wrapping around me.
When he looks up, his pupils dilate once again and I feel my cheeks go hot. When did he look so good? For a moment of looking in his eyes, it was as if all my anger towards this world dissipated, I pulled him closer into the hug, my hands moving up and down his back, which seemed to stop his crying.
I didn't want to care about how I was touching someone, some part of me wanted to pull away but most of me stayed in the hug, and wanted to stay in that moment forever with his arms right around my waist and back, my hands rubbing his back through his blue hoodie. We hold our gaze at each other and I feel his face come closer to mine, so close I can feel his breath on my cheeks as he leans down to press his lips against mine. My eyes widen in shock but I close my eyes and continue the kiss, my body feeling like it was ignited with fireworks. I hold him tighter as we continue the kiss without stopping to breathe, I'm somehow moving along with his lips and I hoped that I could die like this, not with tears streaming down my cheeks as I leaped off the building. All alone. After almost a whole minute, he pulls away and we both sigh, then try to catch our breath.
"I'm sorry.." He starts but I hug him tighter to silence him.
"It's okay Chace, thanks."
"For what?"
"Taking my pain away from me, even if it was just barely a minute. Thank you so much." I reply with a pained smile.
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A/N: wow, okay that was my favourite chapter yet:) I'm sorry if the kissing sounded cringe okay and it's weird that they just met but they kissed so yeah. But whatever I couldn't help it. Hope you like it, btw if you don't know Killua I'm sorry just ignore it lol. He's my fav Anime character so yeah, please remember to vote and comment. Byee!