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[ Catania Cailean Artienda ]

November 30, 2019 | 7:34 PM

Bryle Clayton Zalameza:
Cailean :((

I'm sad

Again

Like...

Always

I wish you were here with me. Dealing this shits ain't okay

Beatrice is having a hard time again in breathing. I thought if we countined her operation, she'll be back to normal, but it went the opposite way

She's getting weaker and weaker each day. And only the machines keeps her alive

I don't know what to do, Cai. I'm losing hope with everything. With Beatrice, with my mom, and us

I tried to stay strong but sometimes I wonder why I constantly put myself in the same situations over and over again

Nothing would change. We just end up getting hurt, wishing that I could go back time and to correct all of my mistakes

Wishing eventually everything would go back to the way it was, but sadly I realized that things will never be the same between us and to think about that hurts, but also gives me comfort

I won't ever have to worry about hurting you again and I'll be happier again, yet deep inside, part of me still has hope that you'd realize how much you mean to me, even if I'm not that showy on how I feel toward others

But again, that's not gonna happen. Why do we always feel bad when we didn't do anything wrong?

I didn't consider Beatrice as a mistake, I loved her from the day she was born until now and as a father, it is hard for me to see her struggling to survive and live