TW: Suicide
"What?"
"I think you're the next Supreme," she says again. "Your powers are strong, especially considering you haven't been properly trained. The fact that you can not only break into, but control the mind of the Supreme? The only person who could do that is-"
"The next Supreme," I finish.
"Exactly. And if your powers are getting stronger, that explains why I'm getting weaker."
"Wait, so you have to lose your power in order for me to grow stronger?"
"Not just my power," she says. "My whole body gets weaker, until eventually I'll die so that you can ascend."
I look up into her eyes. "But... I don't want you to die," I say simply.
Cordelia takes my face in her hands. "My love, I have to die in order for your powers to grow. That's just the way it is."
"But there's got to be a way to stop it! If my powers don't grow, then you can stay alive!"
"Sweetheart," she says, "That's not how it works. Your powers will grow whether you like it or not. There's nothing you can do except enjoy the time we have left together."
She kisses my forehead, wiping away a tear that rolls down my cheek. But at that moment, I get an idea. I throw my arms around her one last time.
She seems startled, but hugs me back immediately. "I love you," I whisper.
"I love you too."
She says it back immediately. This only makes me more sure of what I need to do. The world can't lose a beautiful soul like Cordelia.
I stand up, taking in her beauty one last time. Then, I exit the greenhouse.
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How many do I need?
I pour the pills out into my hand, counting fifteen. That should be enough, right?
Sitting on the floor of the bathroom, I write a note:
Dearest Cordelia,
I am so glad that you found me. This time I have spent with you has been the highlight of my life. You may not understand this now, but I'm doing this for both of us. I can't imagine living in a world where you are no longer around. And while you have your girls to look after, I have no one that I love, except for you, my darling. If one of us has to go, it should be me. All I can do now is pray that your grief passes as quickly as it comes.
My heart belongs to you,
Lucy
I place the note on the ground next to me. Then, taking a sip from the faucet, I swallow all of the pills.
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Let Me Be Your Home
FanfictionWhen Lucy unconsciously arrives at the Academy after being knocked out by her own power, she meets the Supreme, Cordelia Goode. As Lucy settles in at the Academy and begins an independent study with Cordelia, she realizes that this could really be h...
