Torna a Casa | Damiano David

VII. Boundaries

Well I couldn't go back to sleep. Not because I went out for a walk or because I already made myself a cup of coffee. But because of what he said before falling back asleep. We haven't been together for one whole day and I'm meeting his parents. This did not feel right..

I waited for an hour or two for him to wake up again, and God was I nervous. I haven't even met him properly as a lover. The anxiety started kicking in, I was circling around the room, with the same but now cold cup of coffee and my fifth cigarette.
Why were they rushing this so much? Yes, our first kiss was kinda all over tv and Instagram by now.. And his parents probably don't know if we were together for two months of hanging out or for two days.. Why was he, of all people rushing this? I never pressured him to meet my mom, or talk to my dad and his fiance on facetime. And we were just friends 8 hours ago, it wasn't like he would be commiting to anything. That is exactly what this felt like, commiting, and I wasn't ready yet. I just didn't want him to think that I didn't want to meet his parents at all. I wanted, just not now.

His groan broke the stream of my thoughts. He was awake, shit. I leaned my whole body on the dresser behind me and waited for him to properly open his eyes.

"Mia Marlèna, why are you standing there?" He asked with his raspy voice slowly standing up and walking towards me.

"I just couldn't go back to sleep Dami. That's all." as I said that he was in front of me grabbing my face with his hands and slowly kissing me. His lips were so full and after that thought I got lost in the kiss putting my cup besides me on a dresser. My hands were now in his hair as the kiss got more passionate. He broke it smiling to me as his fingers traced my cheek.

"You look worried. What are you thinking about?"

I stud there, my eyes moving from his and looking down at the floor. "I just.. I'll tell you later. Do you want coffee? We could drink it on the terrace upstairs?" I smiled softly at him. After the kiss my worry was kinda gone. I felt like I knew him my whole life and it wasn't a big deal, but it kinda was.

"Sure baby, whatever you want. I'll make sure to make some breakfast. Well if you didn't eat it earlier?"

I just shook my head, grabbing his hand and taking him to the kitchen. As we walked to the kitchen we saw Thomas sound asleep on the couch. He looked uncomfortable to me so I told Damiano to move him to the room we were sleeping. As he did that, I was next to the coffee machine making us espresso. Damiano got back quickly and started making scrambled eggs and toast. I decided to help and cut some of the cheese.

As we finished preparing the breakfast, I looked at the kitchen clock seeing that it's 11:30 am. I really needed to go home, I mean my mom won't be mad but I didn't want to be disrespectful. But I looked away and helped Damiano carry the trays with food, coffee and cigarettes to the terrace.

After eating the delicious food he prepared, I took a sip of my coffee and lit my cigarette.

"So what did you want to tell me? Why were you so worried earlier?" he asked inhaling the smoke.

"I am not sure that I'm comfortable meeting your parents now." I said, looking down at my cup and exhaling the smoke from my lungs. He did the same but looking at me confused.

"Why is that?"

"Look Dami, I really, really, really like you. And I like kissing you, and hugging you and everything about that.. But we're not even officially together for one day. And meeting your parents after not one whole day feels like a bigger commitment than being in a relationship." I stopped and saw he was listening to me closely.

"I mean,  don't get me wrong I would love to meet them and I'd love to commit to you because I feel some type of way when you're around.. Well I felt it since I first saw you at the gig, but I would love to first meet you for who you are and as my boyfriend and then meet your parents. I just don't want to disappoint them if we don't work out. I mean I want us to work out but you know I'm just overthinking things and I'm paranoid because I don't know if you'll get my point." I said and his laughter eased me.