Y/N
I walked into the dressing room and grabbed the makeup bag off table, heading towards the boys.
I was a stylist for WAYV and honestly, it's not easy working for seven boys at the same time.
I walked up to Hendery and greeted him.
"Hi Hendery, how are you?,"I asked as I placed the bag in front him on the table.
"Hey y/n, I'm good you?,"he answered giving me a smile.
"I'm also good, you ready for the interview,"I asked as he nodded.
I applied light eyeshadow to his eyes and then finished the rest of his look.
I felt someone staring at me while I was doing Hendery's makeup.
I looked up and made eye contact with xiaojun.
I blushed as I saw him, he just rolled his eyes and turned to the stylist that was doing his makeup.
I sighed knowing I don't have a chance with him.
I have actually liked him ever since i met him when i first got the job as their stylist.
But he never even bothered to talk to me.
He was rude and mean and arrogant towards me whereas, the other boys were sweet and nice.
I don't know what made him hate me so much, but honestly it hurt knowing that your crush hates you so much.
I did Hendery and Yangyang's makeup and helped them with their outfits.
Soon all seven of the boys were onstage having an interview.
I packed up my things while watching the boys on the small tv which was in the dressing room.
I smiled as I saw Lucas make a joke which made xiaojun laugh.
"You still in love with him, huh?,"I turned around and saw my friend who was also a stylist with me.
I sighed as I nodded sadly while looking down.
She knew about my crush on xiaojun and how he hates me and stuff.
She came and gave me a comforting hug as she whispered.
"You should just confess to him,"she said as we pulled away from the hug.
I widened my eyes and looked at her as if she had grown another head.
"Are you crazy!, we both know that if I did confess, he'd reject me,"I said as I sat down and played with my fingers, something which I did when I was nervous.
"Oh come on, you won't know if he likes you or not unless you confess, plus what if he's just pretending to hate you but he actually likes you,"she said sitting next to me.
"That only happens in movies and books, in reality your crush will reject you in the most painfull way possible,"I said as she groaned and looked at me with narrow eyes.
"Whatever you say, but I'm telling you, you better confess before it's too late,"she said as she got up, grabbing her bag.
"I'm leaving, I have a date with my boyfriend,"she smiled as she rubbed my shoulders and left.
I sighed and played with my wristband which was my only source of entertainment at the moment.
"Maybe I should confess to him, I mean I can't keep hiding my feelings forever right?,"I said to myself as I thought about ways of confessing to xiaojun.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard loud laughter and soon all the boys were back in the dressing room.
I looked at xiaojun and saw him smiling at his phone as he scrolled.
I wonder what made him smile like that, or who made him smile like that?
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The next morning, I entered the dressing room and saw xiaojun and kun in the room.
kun was busy talking to their manager while xiaojun was talking to someone on his phone.
I was supposed to help with xiaojun's makeup today and just at the thought of being so close to him made me blush like crazy.
I probably look like a tomato right now, God.
I walked to him and heard him talking on the phone.
"Yeah sure, I'll see you tonight, ok bye me too,"he said as he ended the call.
He noticed my presence next to him and turned to me.
He sighed once he saw me and rolled his eyes.
My heart clenched at his reaction towards me but I brushed it off.
I was about to greet him but he spoke up first.
"Can you switch places with another stylist?,"he asked rudely as he glared at me.
"Oh, umm, sure,"I said trying not to sound sad at the fact that he didn't want me to be near him.
I changed places with Lucas's stylist and tried my best not to cry.
God why am I such an emotional and sad bitch?
Lucas must've noticed my sadness and decided to question it.
"Hey n/n you okay?,"he asked as I nodded.
He decided not to ask me more questions since he must've noticed that I didn't want to talk about it.
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The next day I decided to confront xiaojun and tell him about my crush.
Yes, even after what happened yesterday.
I thought about this a lot and just decided that it's best if I confess to him.
I walked up to xiaojun who was conversing with winwin and asked him if he could come with me.
I brought him to one of the empty practice rooms here in SM and just let it all out.
"I really, really like you xiaojun and I hope you accept my confession because I have liked you ever since i met you and i hope you also like me back,"i confessed as i closed my eyes awaiting his reply.
"Wow, y/n, that's kinda awkward cause I don't feel the same way,"he said as he scratched the back of his neck.
I opened my eyes and looked at him, clearly hurt by his words.
"I mean don't get me wrong, but I already have a girlfriend,"he said, which broke my heart into a million pieces.
"I don't actually like you, I mean sorry but you're just not my type,"he said as he nodded slowly and then left me there alone in the practice room all by myself.
I knew it, I should've just stopped liking him when he was clearly rude and mean to me.
I always let this happen to myself and then eventually get hurt.
I should've just gotten over him.
Like as if he was some small crush.
But he just wasn't a small crush.
No, he was something more, something which I had hope for.
But I guess he was just not meant for me.
Oh, how I wish I was his girlfriend though.
How I wish, I was the reason behind his beautiful smile.
The reason behind his happiness.
And the reason why he lives.
But then again, not everyone has has a happy ending.
