chapter 8: Jungkook's diary -1

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Jungkook sat on the table beside the window as he took the pen in his hand spinning it around. Opening his diary he looked outside of the window before sighing.

A while later he started writing,

Why is life just a couple of moments long?
For this kind of love...even ages seems to be not enough.
Let me ask for some time from God.

As I just want to live here , I don't want to go far from you..-
- as you are my compassionate partner.
With you , every pain seems pleasant.

Your smile is my strength..I got hope only because of them.
Even if the world is cruel to me, my safe haven is in your smiles.
Life has become so beautiful , where else can heaven be ?

My life is running because of your heartbeat..
I only pray for all those things that you desire..
What a unique bond this is.. my souls seems to be combined with you.

I will always come back to you , even if I die.
This is my promise to you.
As I have taken you as my compassionate partner..

Dear one ,

If you are reading this...that means something seems to have happened to me.  you know what ?I'm smiling..after so long. After thinking for countless times I came to think of this way.

To write to you. I seem to find a way what has happened to me.
Recently I've been feeling good. Last night when Hyungs called me to join them I felt good , I felt I needed to be there. I haven't felt like this in a while.

It's been three months since I joined BTS.  I've a feeling this group is gonna be a world class band. Do you remember the shooting set a week ago?

You wore a school uniform for it and your hair was red. I was mesmerized by your look. For a moment the time stopped and you were In the spotlight. Everyone was cheering for you...but as stupid as I'mI couldn't.

So I want to tell you this , you did great!
Later,  we had to share a car. You were sitting beside me again. How I wish to hold you in my arms. But I can't take what I want because in the end I will hurt you without me knowing.

With you my life seems more short . I want some more time to spend with you but....I can't.
You know ? Few days ago an offer came that a korean show is interested in me ? You looked really happy as well as the Hyungs. The agency sent me there per their request.

At break time , when I offered them meals and drinks they just pushed me away. I did that because I was told to behave from agency. Funny right? I don't know how to be good now.

Then they made me kneel infront of them. I never experienced these , not in school either because they didn't even came near me. I was about to walk out but your smiley face came into my mind...and I stayed.

I want to say this to you ,
You are so perfect . I wish to hold your hand once. All my wishes will be for you , ask what you want cuz I want to spoil you hard.
I'm not the kid who is in his teen , tho I'm still a teen , I'm more mature to think about love.

Even if I die one day when there is no hope , I will still stay with you and protect you. Because you are the only one I've in my heart.

                                                                 - your......

Jungkook looked at the handwriting and smiled.

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