Shine On You Crazy Diamond

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A/N: The title of the Work is from Pink Floyd's concept Album "Wish You Were Here." "Shine On You Crazy Diamond" is the opening track to the album, and the title of the first chapter. Lyrics from the song "Wish You Were Here" are also featured in this chapter as well.

Wish You Were Here takes place after the Dark Phoenix so if you have been warned.

There is a little German and Romanian used in the story. I don't personally speak either so I've just stuck to google translate. It there are any errors please feel free to comment and help me fix them.

Votes and comments are greatly appreciated! Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy the story.

Also, the underlining is supposed to be a strikethrough. You'll understand once you get there.



Peter doesn't know what happened. Nobody really talked about it. One minute they were at Jean's parents trying to calm her down and the next he's waking up in the medbay learning that his whole world turned upside down.

Raven was dead.

He's been in a coma for two and a half months. Broken spine – broken everything really – and a nasty concussion to top it all off. In other words...

He was supposed to be dead.

But as awful as all that was to learn, it was nothing like finding out that Jean was dead too. It wasn't that Jean meant more than Raven. No, it was the fact that Jean was already gone before she died.

Nobody wanted to fill him in on the specifics of what happened, which he understood, but it only led to him looking into what he already knew more.

Jean lost control.

That was the answer his brain came up with, and to Peter, that was the worst way she could have died. But it made the most sense.

Peter always liked Jean. At first, it was painful because he'd look at her and see a glimpse of his sister, but over time he began to see her as someone separate. Someone different. Sure, they had similar abilities and always felt the weight of the world on their shoulders, but they weren't that alike.

Turns out they were more alike than he initially thought for them to have died the same way.

Peter remembers seeing Jean fighting herself for control before he went into the coma. He remembers her grabbing her head fighting with the voices inside it. Just wanting quiet. The same thing happened to his Wanda. He remembers Jean's powers rippling through and out of her... just like his Wanda. He remembers the pain she was in and knowing there was nothing he could do to help. He still tried, but he failed her... just like he failed Wanda.

It didn't matter how fast he was in the end. He couldn't save Jean from herself, and he couldn't save Wanda either.

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Hank was walking up to Peter's bed to check his IV again. They both had been avoiding all conversation and even eye contact when possible after the first time Peter gained consciousness. It was dead silent in the room to the point one could hear a pin drop. It was miserable.

Peter wasn't there when everybody lost everything. He wished he was. Maybe he could help. He hates himself for not being there, but he couldn't be. And Peter feels so guilty for being so clueless as to what happened when he woke up. He knows it's not his fault he didn't know, but it's one thing to know something and another to understand it. He felt awful the second after he asked what happened. The second he saw the dark circles under Hank's eyes and the dim look inside those blue eyes themselves. He feels awful for Hank having to fill him in on what happened. Out of everyone, Hank was probably the most hurt from it all.

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