How We Met

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Chaeyoung keeps shifting on her bed. She can't find the reason to fall asleep. Last time when she was here, Lisa was with her, hugging her tightly as the doctor fell asleep.

For once, Chaeyoung feels her eyes glistening with tears again. It has been quite a month, she tells herself when she sits up on the bed, her knees are pressed to her chest as she buries her face in the space between them - she should have learnt on how to let go.

But for some reasons, her heart keeps yelling at her; that Lisa is still alive, that she is somewhere out there waiting for her to come back. Spontaneously, tears fall down her cheeks as she rocks herself back and forth.

"Honey?"

Clare calls softly, causing Chaeyoung to look at her mother. She doesn't care much how the woman has been perceiving her these few weeks.

She doesn't care much if her mother thinks lowly of her. She loves Lisa; loves her so much and to know that the person you love the most is gone and will never come back is another level of pain that keeps stabbing you but never let you die.

And that's how Chaeyoung feels anyway.

She keeps drowning, but she isn't anywhere dying.

"Wh...what?"

The cardiologist asks with a strained voice.

"Are you okay?"

"Mom, I miss her"

"It's okay" Clare rushes into the room as she pulls her daughter into her her warm embrace. "I know you're hurting. I'm hurting too. She was a good daughter, an amazing wife, I'm sure but ... maybe it's for the best?"

"I need her" Chaeyoung cries. "But she left me"

"She didn't" Clare hums. "She's in your heart now, Chae"

"Well, I don't need her there" the blonde sobs. "I need her now, with me. Next to me, holding my hand like she promised me she would"

"Chae"

"I'm not ready to let go, mom. It hurts. It hurts still"

"Chae" her mom clears her throat as stubborn tears fall down her cheeks. "Trust me, I know exactly how it feels to be away from the one that you love endlessly. It hurts but there's nothing you can do about it"

"I ..." the blonder stutters. "I love her a lot, mom"

"I know, honey. Trust me, she was the best I could prayed for you"

"And we imagined of a life together. Growing old, holding hands..."

Chaeyoung pauses as she cries again.

"But everything is taken from me"

"Oh, my darling" Clare says, pulling her daughter tighter into her hug. "I love you a lot, baby. I love you"

"But I love her"

"I know. She loved you too"

•••

Roseanne rests her head on top of Lili's chest as her wife continues to work through a set of documents she received this afternoon from her co-worker.

The New Yorker rolls her eyes once in a while as she stares at the clock. It's almost 3 in the morning but the attorney is still chained to her iPad and her notebook where she scribbles most of her findings.

Yawning excessively to win Lili's attention, Roseanne runs her hand on the latter's thigh, sending Lili obviously at the edge. She lifts her eyes for a second from her notebook and stares in disbelief at her wife.

"Yes?"

"Give me attention!"

"You have mine since 16 years ago, Roseanne"

Lili replies, causing Roseanne to blush like crazy.

"I know but I need extra now"

"Bubs, you're so clingy. I can't with you"

"I have to be clingy" Roseanne defends herself. "My wife is too hot to not be clingy to"

"Bubs" Lili laughs softly. "I really want to cuddle with you, but I need to finish this case. It's important to me"

"You always say that" Roseanne says, pouting like a duck. "I'm important too am I?"

"You're so adorable" Lili leans in to kiss with her wife, her iPad is left forgotten on the nightstand. "I can't believe I have you all to myself"

"Well, you better believe it, nerdy. I am married to you"

"I know. It's hard to believe that New York's hottest resident chose to end up with me"

"Because a certain someone wouldn't accept no as an answer"

"Of course" Lili laughs in their kiss. "You know me, don't you"

"More than anything in my life" Roseanne laughs.

"I honestly don't know how you manage to up with me"

Lili laces their fingers together, kissing Roseanne's hand as she brings it closer to her lips.

"It's a lot of job actually," the pretty architect jokes and Lili makes sure to roll her eyes in front of Roseanne's face. "But you're cute so you're lucky"

"I really hate you, Bubs"

"Should I be worried that you've been saying that a lot to me now ever since we got to Seoul?"

"No" Lili breaks the kiss. "We are fine" she connects their foreheads again. "And I fucking in love with you"

They are about to kiss again. No, fuck that. They are about to rip their clothes away when Lili's phone start ringing. At first, Lili and Roseanne ignores it but as their kiss grows intense, so does the call.

"I'm gonna kill those who disturb us"

"Come on" Roseanne laughs. "Stop being so dramatic and pick up the damn call"

"Hello?"

Lili is about to say something when she hears Suzy's voice.

"What?"

"Lisa" Suzy whispers and that's more than enough makes Lili's heart stops.

•••

"Hello, this is Lili Manoban speaking"

The Thai says as she rings Jennie Kim at 4 in the morning.

The cat eyed woman definitely pisses off at the rude wake up call.

"What the fuck?" she curses. "I have no issues with you, Manoban. Just fuck away from me"

"Apparently, I need you to tell me where your little sister is because I went to her home and it's empty"

"Why the fuck should I tell you?"

Jennie hisses. "You're just an evil attorney who knows how to take advantage of people"

"I need. I lecture at the moment" Lili says coldly. "Just fucking tell me where she is"

"Why?"

"I can't tell you" Lili mumbles stubbornly.

"Well, good then. I can't tell you anything if you refuse to tell me that"

"Jennie"

"What Lili?"

"Just fucking tell me!"

"No! You tell me, Manoban. What do you want from my sister?"

"BECAUSE LISA JUST FUCKING LOST HER CONSCIOUSNESS AGAIN AND I CAN'T FUCKING LOSE HER FOR REAL!"

"Wait....what?"

"I told you! It's gonna be messy. "Just fucking tell me where she is"

"Our parents's home" Jennie mumbles insecurely.

"But what did you say? About Lisa?"

"Yeah" Lili sighs, pinching the bridge of her nose. "Lisa is not dead"

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