𝒊'𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕..

Temporary fix..

Everything is temporary; happiness, sadness, feelings.. feelings, i thought they'll be temporary, i thought they'll fade when we stopped talking for a while, when we fought and when you made me cry, i thought i'll get over it and live in peace, but here i'm falling in love even deeper than i imagined, stronger than my heart can handle, I thought you're my temporary fix, i thought i needed someone staying by my side in my hard time, i've never ever thought about us together, which i'd love to live in. They say believe in what you dream and it'll become in your hand, i do believe, or let's be honest, i do not believe that we're a thing i want to but i can't my past is holding me back and filling me with the word "what if", what if he says no, what if you're not the one, what if he sees you as friend what if what if...those are making me step backwards and making me give up, but i guess really if we believe it will and i want new chapter of you and me, i want to make you happy and i want to be loved by you, tell me, who accepts you when you're at your lowest? who accepts when you're not feeling yourself, when you feel nothing but pain, when you feel nothing but pure aches, when life gives you a middle finger while you're waiting for a hand to hold and for shoulder to cry ? who's here ? no one you're alone, fighting your loneliness, your depression, and kicking off those suicide thoughts, you're avoiding that voice that's keep telling you do it, now, you don't deserve living, you're going to hell anyway, do you know the point of being so sad till you feel numb? no one understands the other, and no one is here for the other, you have or we have to fight for our own living, for our own life, we have to creat a beautiful world, even it's based on our imagination, feel the world, make it better place, live it's like your last on earth, when the life really gives a middle finger do the same, live your life to the fullest..