Late night, 3Am.. heavy breaths, sleepy voices and having fun like children, never thought that listening to you talking is an hobby and yes, it entertains me...
You voice, your goddamn voice, the way you laugh and the way i can feel your smile throughout the phone, and all your little talks, the encouragement you give me and the energy you fell me up with, never thought your voice is a cure to my inner sadness, and the company to my loneliness.
3Am and i'm staring at the ceiling, headphones in my ears and you're talking about nothing but everything, feeling like we're the only people who exist in this world, no one but us and we still fighting to stay awake, still fighting to spend more time together, is this a sign that you want me like i dreamed? if yes, please keep giving me this happiness, can't believe i finally found a literal joy with you, i found peace with you that i can see life throught, i see colors again, after years and years of being colorblind, colors are filling up my life now, with your existance i can be stronger than ever, still waiting like a promise and i'll never give up until i feel your hands in mine..
4Am, you're no longer here , you left me behind you and promised me to come back and you didn't, that the second promise you have ever broke.
You know what hurts, fighting for you, for us to be a good partners and i'm the victim , and i'm the one who get killed, this is a war and i'm the war martyr, you survived and i didn't .
5Am, no i give up, it's been an hour, you broke the promise, you didn't keep your words, and again i'm in vortex of thought, overthing is funny, you get killed by your own thoughts, ones fool you like you're in a disney land full of happiness and love, and ones teach you how the hard life can go, show you how the are you fooled by nothing but pure happiness, you think life that easy? you think you'll end up in eternity of happiness? please don't forget that you're alone, that no one can lift you up from your darkness, but once you fall in there's no come back...
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𝒊'𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕..
Romansai'll wait, until the sun doesn't show up again. i'll wait, until my soul leaves my body i'll wait, until my hair becomes grey i'll wait, to the day god decides to take me to him i'll wait, to the day you're finally mine and when you're mine, I won'...
