Fancy

Chapter 2

I know you must be thinking is she mad or what like who the hell want to be a product manager when you can leave the country. Huh I know studying abroad looks fun to you, it used to look fun to me as well but few years ago not now. Now when I know the details Its hella complicated and as a middle class indian girl  you have 100 extra things to think about.
I don't even know where to start from.

Shall I introduce my university first or the job ,okay so lets start with the university. Don’t be too excited I am not getting into Harvard or Stanford they are way out of my league. I am an average girl with average marks and so called middles class family so even if I get into Harvard or Stanford shit I may not be able to pay the fees. And as I told that i am an average girl who barely passed her college exams getting scholarships is not my cup of tea. Also getting into private university is not possible. I only have one option and that is University of Michigan for the people who don't Know where is this university, its in united states of America. The reason why I have this university as my option is only because first it has 23% acceptance rate which means an average person like me can get into it and second has lesser tuition and accommodation fees as compared to other universities. As a dumbo like me who got a call back from even one university was a big deal.
So now let me introduce the job that I got through my campus placement its in JP Morgan I know it’s a fancy company but being a product manager will be equal to working day and night. No doubt they are offering good package but I am very well aware how they gonna make me work for their single penny. Yaa that’s all, these are my only options. I am very well aware that some people don’t even get this much of options but let me tell you I am not bragging. I am more than happy.
My best friend has suggested me to make pros and cons list for both the option which will help to me ease my selection process.
So here we go
Pros for university
1) moving out of my house
2) getting to settle in a new country which is far better than ours( I only agree partially)
3) its US
4) American boys
5) can live the way I want (Dressing, eating, everything)
6) Freedom
Cons for the university
1) moving out of my house
2) settling in new country where xenophobic still exist ( it exist everywhere tbh)
3) Asians ( south Asians ) gets a hard time settling in states
4) I am vegetarian
5) never lived away with my parents in past 23 years of my life( basically I am a Rapunzel )
6) its costly
7) have to study harder as compared to my graduation days   
Pros of job
1) would be soon financially independent
2) would be able wear nice formals everyday
3) might have chance on office romance
4) maybe like maybe I would move out of my parents house (its a delusion like they are like any normal Indian parents so they won’t let me do that)
Cons of job
1) would be working my ass off
2) probably would fail at my tasks
3) would have less social life
4) no me time (or less me time)
5) adjusting in new environment

I know I have made the list and somehow is very clear that I should go with the job but that one thing that tiny one thing is making me choose university and that is FREEDOM. As a typical middle class girl who have been told all her life about what to do is somewhere inside screaming and telling me to choose higher studies though I don’t like to study but yaa I will compromise anything and everything for that damn freedom. I cant even imagine how there will be no one to tell me to dress up in certain manner. There wont be any fear of judgment  while I would be chucking my beer glass. There wont be any aunties asking if I have any boyfriend. I can wake up as per mood. I can eat as per my choice. The person who have been restricted all her life, even for small things that damn freedom looks like heaven to her. I can’t express.

Wow just my imagining this it makes my heart flutters. I HAVE DECIDE I AM GOING TO FUCKING STATES, TAKE NOTES US, I AM COMING. NOBODY LITERALLY NOBODY CAN STOP ME NOW.
The next thing I have to do is to apply for a student loan. Confirm my seat in the university and also need to go to shopping. Damn I have to meet my relatives and friends also because I don’t know  when will I be returning again and as travelling cost 1lakh(it’s a lot for me ), damn I am hella not gonna spend that money anyway sooner on just to see bunch of Indians (kidding). At this point of story you might think I am mean and don’t give a shit about my friends and family but that’s not true, internally I am gonna miss them and I know I will be homesick within a week or so.
That’s future lets focus on today.