Where am I?

- Chapter Ten -

My thirteenth day here, and I was starting to wish I could stay here with Chris forever. What the hell was wrong with me?

I was absolutely exhausted, my night had been awful, my head was hurting due to my endless crying, my eyes were red and puffy and I was freezing cold, even though the temperature didn't change.

Chris noticed I wasn't feeling good, but he really didn't have time to stay.

Luckily he came back in the afternoon, like he did these previous days.

I was waiting for him, standing in the room, as close to the door as I could possibly go, which meant in the middle of the room.

Finally I saw him enter the room. As soon as the door was closed, he stepped closer to me. I reached for him and wrapped my arms around his waist, burying my head into his chest.
Once again, I started sobbing in his arms, tightening my grip around his waist.

No, I wasn't playing anymore. I could no longer lie to myself. I got tricked by my own game. I fell in love with him.

He held me tight against him.
-"hey... What's happening? Why are you so sad, my sweet babygirl?"

I managed to say between my sobbing:
-"r-run.. A-away.. W-with m-me.."

He rubbed my back tenderly and held me until I calmed my crying.
He led me to the bed, making me straddle his laps.

I glanced at his face.

No. I wasn't able to let him go. I knew he would probably end up dead when his boss would find out he helped me. I wasn't able to spend the rest of my life without him. I had to convince him to come with me.

I took a deep breath, and finally said:
-"Chris... Listen... You were right, at first my plan was to get closer to you and try to seduce you, then I was planning on having sex with you as much as you wanted to, then begging you to let me out, I just thought it'd be different, because I didn't expect you to be who you are... I thought you'd have tried to have sex on day 2, but you didn't... So I tried to get closer and closer, but you seemed to be craving more for a conversation than for sex.. And honestly, I started liking it... The more I knew about you and the more I was surprised. I thought you were just a mad or an evil man. But you're none of that, you're just the unluckiest person I got to meet, and even though you went through so much shit, even though you got to meet the madness, you managed to stay as mentally sane as you could... I can see you have a heart, and not only because you planned on letting me out, but for many other reasons.. You deserve to be happy, Chris... You're so strong, and honestly, even though you've done bad things, you're still a good person. You did what you had to do in order to survive, and it's something we can all forgive, because we all do the same... It's not your fault... Anyway... What I want to say is that I'm not playing anymore... I tried to convince myself that you were nothing to me, I told myself that I didn't care about you, but I can't do this anymore... I lost my own game... I fell for you Chris... So please, I'm begging you, run away with me... I can't leave without you, and I don't want to spend my life without you..."

His eyes filled with tears, he shook his head.
-"n-no.. You can't be serious..."

I crashed my lips on his. I threw all my feelings in this kiss, I really wanted him to know I was being serious. I wanted him to know I was being sincere.

Both of tears were flowing down our cheeks, giving the kiss this familiar salty taste.

I was the one who pulled away, my hands on his damp cheeks, gazing in his eyes.
-"Chris, I swear I mean it... I love you... So please, I'm begging you, run away with me... You said you didn't want to run away on your own, so please... Do it with me... Let's go to Sydney together, let's travel all around the world together..."
-"I... I don't know... I don't want you to regret it later..."
-"I won't regret it... I promise. I need you to leave this place with me... I love you Chris, sincerely... So please, run away with me..."

We stared into each other's eyes for a few long minutes. He eventually nodded.
-"ok... I'll leave with you... I... I love you too..."

Our lips met, but this time, it was different. We both poured all our love in this kiss, wanting to prove each other how sincere we were.

We explored each other's bodies, with soft touches, warm kisses.
It felt like time had stopped, it felt like we were the last humans on earth.

Heavy breathing and soft whimpers were breaking the silence of the room, as we abandoned ourselves to each other in this ultimate act of love.

We rested in each other's hold, as we caught back our breathing.

-"Chris?"
-"mhm?"
-"I love you."

He pecked my forehead.
-"I love you too."

I was relieved, my heart felt lighter. We were leaving together.
This thought made me smile.

After a while, he sat up in the bed. It was time for him to leave.

I pecked his lips.
-"I'll miss you."
-"you know I'll miss you too, babygirl.."

He gave me a small hug, then he stood up.
We glanced at each other, the same loving smile lighting up our faces.
He blew a kiss at me as he walked toward the door.
-"I love you babygirl."
-"I love you too, Chrispy."

He giggled at my words and left.

I lied back on the bed. My heart had been on a rollercoaster these past few day, but I was definitely relieved to know Chris was coming with me.
I was still a bit worried as we weren't out yet, but I felt like this was going to work. I knew we would be able to travel the world, I knew we would be able to grow old together.

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As always, we shared dinner and spent a short moment together, cuddling and kissing.

-"you should leave and have some rest, my sweet Chrispy."

He giggled, pecking my lips.
-"I'll leave.. But I'll miss you so bad until tomorrow."
-"I'll miss you too, I hope you know that."
-"I guess I do.."

I kissed his lips, we shared a quick hug and he left.

I couldn't wait to be out there, with him.

This night, I had no trouble falling asleep, I was just so relieved.