Where am I?

- Chapter Eleven -

It was my seventeenth day here, in other words, it was the day before our run away plan.

I was excited and stressed out as the D-Day was so close, but I knew everything would be alright. I had faith in this plan, I had faith in life.

Chris came in, as usual, to spend some time with me during the afternoon.

I was happy to see him, and he seemed different. He didn't change anything on him, but he seemed even more at peace. And seeing such a look on his face was healing my heart.

We lied on the bed, for a long cuddle session.

I loved listening to his heartbeat, I loved hearing his breathing, I just loved him. Yeah, I loved him. Maybe that was insane, but I no longer cared.

As we remained silent for a while, he asked:
-"so.. Are you ready for tomorrow?"

I smiled.
-"yes. Honestly I can't wait to arrive in Australia with you."
-"what will you want us to do there?"
-"mhm.. I want us to go stargazing, I want us to watch a sunset at the beach, I want us to go to a romantic restaurant and share a delicious meal, I want us to go on late night walks, I want us to go to see the kangaroos, I want us to try uncommon local food, I want us to try camping.."

He giggled.
-"that's a lot of things you want to do!"
-"yeah, and I wasn't done!"

He pecked my forehead.
-"I promise we'll do everything you want! We have a lifetime to make all of your dreams come true."

I got myself up a little to kiss his lips.
I said:
-"thank you... I know you might think this is too much, or I don't know... But I really am thankful for everything you're doing for me. You're giving me the chance to start a new life, and with you... So thank you, Chris, sincerely. Thank you so much. I really love you."

His eyes became a little glossy, but a smile appeared on his lips.
-"honestly babygirl.. Thanks to you. You're the one giving me the chance and also the strength to start a new life with you... I was only doing something fair, for once in my life.. But what you're doing, it's just.. Wow.. I don't even have the words... You're really a good person. You're a real life angel.. So thanks to you." He kissed my lips. "And you know I love you too.."

I brushed my fingers over his cheek, my eyes getting lost in his own.
-"you're also a good person, Chrispy... I know you don't agree with me, but this is a fact.. You said it yourself, it's not like you really had the choice.. You deserve to be happy, and I promise I'll do everything I can to make you feel this way."

He smiled, pecking my lips.
-"I think you already make me happy... I feel.. Different. The only thing I want is to spend my whole days and my whole nights by your side. I don't care about what we do, or where we are, the only thing I want is to be with you. And I'll be the happiest man on earth."

This was definitely way too cute, his words moved me.

We shared a long and loving kiss, then it was already time for him to leave.

We hugged each other for a few more minutes.

He stood up.
-"tonight's the last dinner we share on here, babygirl. I'll be missing you until tonight."
-"I'll be missing you too, and patiently waiting for you to come back. I love you Chrispy."
-"I love you too."

And with these sweet words, he left.

This was my last afternoon I was spending here, reading a love story. Tomorrow I would be living my own love story, and just this thought made my heart flutter.

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We ate our last dinner on here.

-"Chrispy?"
-"yes, babygirl?"
-"how do you feel about knowing it's your last day here?"

He took a moment to reply.
-"mhm... It feels weird. I've been in here for so long... I feel excited, I feel anxious, I feel... I'm a little scared, because the only thing I've known is this place.. I mean, I spent my teenage years here... I'm afraid that I don't fit with the world..."

I pulled away the tray to wrap my arms around him.
-"you'll fit with the real world, I'm not worried about that. And you're not alone anymore."

He nuzzled his head in the crook of my neck.
-"thank you... It means a lot to me..."

We shared a long kiss as it was time for him to go.

-"see you tomorrow by 9, have a goodnight babygirl, our last night on our own."

I smiled at him.
-"I can't wait until tomorrow! I love you, have a good night Chrispy."

-"I love you too."

I watched him walking out without me for the last time.

I was really excited, I couldn't stop smiling at the thought of us just spending a whole night together. I wanted to feel his warmth 24/7, I was already missing his presence.

This was my last night in this shitty bed.
This was my last night apart of him.

This was my last night struggling to fall asleep.