Bad Assignment

it's time to end it.

                                                               Illumi's P.O.V

          Hisoka is asleep by my side, as I'm siting up right on my bed. Killing him is the only way out of this. The thought of his blood on my hands is making feel something I never have before, sorrow. I have spent enough time procrastinating, letting him make me feel better about myself. He's the cause of all these feeling's; With him gone, father will be proud. I'll do what I must to help my family, to keep the family business stable.

     I crawl out of bed, already have made up my mind on doing this. I won't use my needles, he at very least deserves a better death than that. Not a death as if he is at all like my other victims. I pull out a beautifully crafted dagger from my weapon display in my room. The elegant red roses swirling around the handle, all the way up to the tip of the blade. It felt distinctly... Hisoka like.

     I take one more look at the define features  of his face, sculpted carefully, his face a work of art. His mouth slightly ajar, deep in sleep, with not a clue of what I was about to do. The floor creaked with discomfort at every step I took closer to the bed, closer to his death. I am weighed down with a thousand pounds, my limbs feeling as if they were lead as I grew closer to the one I love. 

     I love Hisoka. 

     Funny how I can only recognize that as I hold a blade to his neck. I took a shaky breath in as i attempted to steady my trembling hands. My eyes clench close in an attempt to dull the acing pain starting to bubble up behind my eye's. He deserves me to at least look at what atrocity Im about to commit. My eyes slowly pealed open and I jump back slightly in surprise. Surprised that Hisoka's golden eyes met mine, with all the love they can hold looking up at me.

     The bed dipped as Hisoka rose upright in a fluid motion. He tugged the hand griping the dagger towards his chest, not a tremble in his sure movement. I couldn't help the tears welling up in my eye's, threatening to overflow. Im about to end his life, and he accepts it, he knew this was how it was going to end. Deep down so did i. One of us was destined to kill the other. Writen in stone as if it's sure to happen.

     I leaned in to lay a shaky kiss on his lips. His hand finds it way to my face as he softly took charge of the bitter sweet kiss. All my emotions were finally clear, all that I repressed for all those years coming to the surface. Anger, sorrow, fear... joy. The fog covering it all disappeared, as if it was never there to begin with. 

     With his lips still on mine I pressed the dagger closer to his chest, and with one swift motion, pierced his heart. I pulled away from the kiss with soft regret in my eye's. Blood beaded around the dagger, not pooling out due to the blade holding the wound closed. My hand shakily pulled the rose embellished dagger away from his torso. Warm blood showed my body, streaks of it coated my tear stained face. I finally look up from abrasion to see the warmth from his eye's start slowly fade away, a small smile still resting on his dying face.

     "I love you, I always have, and always will Illumi."♥️ He choked out as bright red blood filled his mouth. A shuddered sob left my mouth at his delicate words. 

    Warm blood covered my hands, something that can never truly be washed off. Hisoka was a radiant light in my life that I took for granted, and now he's gone. I can't live without him, I think as I flipped the blood soaked dagger towards my chest.

     "I love you too, Hisoka."

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