I wish I hated you

7. Real friend.

Chanel

I have the urge to be a bitch to everyone that stands in my way for some reason. Like I'm finally realizing my worth and what I'm capable of. I always knew I was powerful but I doubted myself sometimes. Then again, I'm super confident and fearless sometimes...but that doesn't stop me from doing anything.

I might have been scared of what's to come but I woke up this morning feeling more confident than ever. On this fine Tuesday morning I also decided to ignore every fear of mine and live my life even if that means it has to end.

I guess it was normal for me to make that decision because I find myself ignoring and not feeling my emotions quite frequently. It's like I have an internal switch, I can turn my feelings on and off on command.

Maybe it's unhealthy and dangerous because I never deal with my emotions but at least I don't have to feel the pain, the sadness, the anger, the anxiety...instead I feel nothing. I'm just suddenly numb. To everything.

As I was getting ready for school, yes I can go to school even after the accident.
I wasn't hurt badly, I decided to change my style a little bit to look how I felt.

Powerful and confident.

I want people to look at me and know not to mess me. Because I was over that bullshit.

Instead of doing my usual natural makeup, I did a full on glam look. I felt like a different person in a good way. I put on a matching lace underwear set which made me feel even more confident. My outfit consists of a black dress that has puffy sleeves with a matching purse and gold jewelry. Oh and I added black heals. I look so good right now.

I radiated power and confidence and once I entered the school, I got stares from everyone. I made my way to my locker, put my books away then just as I was about to lock my locker Catherine ran towards me with a huge grin on her face.

"Girl you look so good!" She comes up to hug me. "Thank you Cat, I could say the same for you." I smile. Catherine is also wearing a really nice dress. "What's up with the new style?" She looks at me slightly suspicious.

"I wanted to try something new." I shrug. She looks at me up and down. "I like the new you." She smiles sweetly. "I really appreciate it." I feel people staring and I slowly start to grow uncomfortable. I look around me and just as I thought, people are staring.

"I'm going to class." I give Cat a warm smile before heading to my class. "See you around hottie!" She yells form behind me. I flip her off and continue walking.

I sit down at a desk in the back of the room shortly after I take my notebook and pencil case and set it down on the surface in front of me. I get a pink colored pen and open the notebook. I am the only one in this classroom, I find it creepy. On the bright side, no one is here to bother me.

I start drawing on the paper. There was no point to it, I just found it relaxing. After a couple of minutes I stopped and admired my art. I drew princess castle. I know, it's random and childish.

I was so focused on my drawing that I didn't even notice Louis standing in front of my desk. I look up at him through my lashes and let out an annoyed sigh. "Find someone else to bother Louis." He looks around the empty room. "Too bad you're the only one here." He smirks.

Umm I don't think he wants to annoy me right now. "Louis." I say in a warning tone. "What's the reason you woke up this morning?" He questions softly and seriously at the same time. A surprised expression takes over my features.