Almost is Never Enough

Prologue

Prologue

Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. All characters appearing in this work are a work of fiction and only a product of my imagination. Enjoy reading!

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Did you ever wonder when will be your last day living in this world? What will be the last word you will say to your loved ones, who will be the last person that you will see at your last moment.

It's either a doctor or a person who will bring an end to you?

They say before you go and leave this world you will begin to have a flashback, you will remember all the bad decisions that you made that will bring regrets to you, all the things that you kept, will be turned into memories and you will always wish to go back and feel it over again. In a moment, you're still with your loved ones, eating dinner with them, making them laugh, you still have the freedom to say what you want to say to them but in a blink of an eye, that thing you treasure will disappear like a dream.

Because right now, that's the things that I feel as I fight for the incoming end that soon will remove my existence in this world.

"Don't close your eyes! Stay with me, Kali! Stay with me!" my mother said with fear and tears in her eyes as they push me with a stretcher to the emergency room full of stab wounds, my head hurt like crazy too that felt like my brain will explode.

Everyone that I loved is there looking at me with fear and discomfort like it is hard for them to see me in pain, like in just the blink of an eye they know they will lose me.

It seems like my ears go deaf and everything is in slow motion as I hear their cries and scream telling me not to leave them, but I don't know if I can still hold on, I don't know if my love for them is good enough to fight my fate. I am just blankly looking at the lights in a ceiling that we passed while they quickly push the stretcher so my life will be saved right away.

But I don't know if holding on is still my choice right now... because it felt like that the deities already decide on my fate.

"I'm here Kali, please don't give up please don't leave me, please my love I love you" his voice sounds like a mixture of fear and hope as he holds my hand to make me feel that I'm not alone. As long as I want to answer him, there's no voice coming from my mouth. I'm just blankly looking at him as if my brain stops my body from moving.

He's the one that keeps me alive, but I think this will be the last time that I can saw his face, the last moment that I can hold his hand, and it pains me that the last thing I will remember is the pain and tears in his eyes.

I don't want to leave them full of regrets because I failed to show and say what I need to say.

I look to my loved ones, memorizing their face and if God wants to take my life today, let me borrow a minute or even seconds to bid my goodbye for them, so they can continue to live their life like how they used to be, so they can wake up every day not blaming their self because they failed to protect me.

An excruciating pain dominates my brain and I tightly hold Charlie's hands and the moment I close my eyes, a memory flash in my mind like an unforeseen thunder of what happened that leads me to that kind of situation.

Friday Afternoon, the sun is set and the breeze of the December wind touches my skin that makes me shiver. As I watch the sunset on the soccer field in my university, a pen and sketchbook on my lap while thinking for a new concept for my painting when I saw Charlie smiling at me as he approaches me where I am, a smile that makes my heart beats so fast, the smile that always makes me vulnerable. He's wearing his white coat, meaning that he just finished his shift from the hospital before coming here. He's an intern doctor and I'm so proud of him. He holds my hand and I just watch him do the thing that always melts my heart, enjoying his dark but angelic face and listens how my heart beats so fast on his every touch.