Most of you are probably thinking this is one of those cool fantasy stories. Nope. Go on with your day if you think that's the case. For the people who know what this is about, or who really want to learn, go ahead and read my journal.
*Note: This week was kind of a negative week for me. If you don't want to read the whole thing, Day 4 was the only day where I got results, and the bottom has a summary of my thoughts from this week.*
Day 1: Ayy Day 1 of Week 2!!! Tbh, nothing much happened today when practicing my abilities. HOWEVER, there were some interesting things that happened when I went outside. First of all, I was at a local town center that was near my house and decided to sit next to a fountain. The cool part was that I really felt a connection between me and the water. It was like I was drawn to it. The second thing that happened is that I found an adorable stray cat wandering along the side walk. I found it interesting because you could never really find stray cats in my area. So yep, today was certainly one heck of a day.
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Day 2: I'm kind of starting to feel frustrated when it comes to practicing my abilities. But I know that frustration is part of the process and it's okay to feel that way sometimes (especially since it's only the 9th day). And again, I'm starting to have the feeling that I'm behind in life *sigh*. I'll keep trying though, no matter how long it takes.
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Day 3: I slacked off again today 😞. I just don't have any motivation whatsoever. When I just woke up this morning I was so full of determination and productivity, and then not too long later I completely didn't do anything. What to do? :(
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Day 4: STARTING TO SEE PROGRESS FOR VITAKINESIS. Okay it's kind of embarrassing for me to say this, but earlier today I was having bladder problems....What I mean by this is that I consistently felt like I had to use the restroom. The feeling was so often that it sometimes even came like a second after I've just used the restroom. And idk why I didn't do it earlier, but I started affirming and putting the intention that I wanted to heal and ease the feeling, and it worked! In just a few seconds I started to feel the urge to go to the bathroom slowly go away. I'm now starting to believe that vitakinesis is...right for me? It's just starting to feel like an ability I'm comfortable with. As for telekinesis, I'm still trying. Patience and concentration are certainly important factors when it comes to telekinesis, and are things that I rlly need to work on.
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Day 5: Unmotivated as usual lol. I basically wasted my time on games the whole day 😭. No progress with my abilities as well. It's just one of "those days" ig. It's okay, just gotta keep on going.
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Day 6: Basically today was similar to yesterday, but worse. My whole body was feeling completely uncomfortable, not to mention the terrible pain in my stomach that made things harder to deal with. I felt super nauseous, but when I tried to throw up I just couldn't do it. In the end I had to listen to a subliminal to ease the pain, and it worked wonders (I'm still feeling uncomfortable, but at least the pain in my stomach is gone). I think this week is just one of my bad weeks lol.
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Day 7: I think I've come to a realization. I keep pressuring myself and overwhelming myself to the point where I feel drained and can't let myself breathe. I'm always overthinking, and I'm stressing myself to the point where I honestly feel so lost. I don't know what to do, and even if I do know what to do, I don't do it=_=. But now that I have realized this, I'm going to try not to pressure and overwhelm myself today. From now on, my mental health is going to be something I will be working and improving on, and nobody will take that away from me 💅✨
✧─── ｡★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧ Overall, this week was quite uncomfortable to get through. Though I didn't really update much on my abilities, I have come to a realization that I need to stop stressing myself this much. From this, I have a feeling that Week 3 (next week) is going to be a better week. Ofc I could be wrong lol but it's just a prediction. Even though this week was quite a negative one, it made me realize how there are still new things that I will be able to learn and explore each and every day.
