Romanogers

Chapter 3 - Regrets?

Steves POV:

I stayed there in shock, I didn't know what to do. Thoughts were rushing through my mind. Should of I kissed her? She kissed me back? Why did she leave?...   I must of stayed there for a while because before I new it my stomach started to rumble. I took a deep breath and started to walk towards the stairs, I forgot I hadn't  eaten all day. My mind was spinning.

I grabbed a pack of noddles from the shelf and pored hot water into them. It was silent while I ate, It was strange normally there would be some sort of noise whether  it was the TV or Bucky and Wanda getting in a argument  over something  stupid or natasha punching clint for something and him complaining to me. but It was silent.  I sat eating for 10 mins or so till Suddenly a small figure shadow walked down the stairs. She froze for a sec when she sore me keeped walked down. 

"Hey" she said. 

She came and sat down opposite to me, her eyes were wide as she was looking at me. I could tell she had things on her mind. I was surprised  she hadn't  run away yet with everything that  had happened , first the red room, then the kiss. We sat there in silence . I was trying not to look at her but it was hard, her soft red hair sat on her shoulders, as her green eyes peered out the window. 

"You want something  to eat?" 

"Im ok thanks" She said giving me an a side smirk. 

I don't  know why I asked  she never ate. I don't  why she never did I guess me and everyone else were just to scared to ask. 

Nats POV: 

I decided I had spent enough time in my room, I needed a distraction from my thoughts so I decided to head down stairs. As I tip toed down the stairs I could see Steve . I didn't  think he would be up it was almost  3am. I stoped for a minute thinking I should  go back upstairs but he noticed me so I couldn't , I decided to go sit down instead .  

"Hey" 

I was trying to relive the tension but It didn't  work. We sat there for 20 mins or so I dint know what to say so i juts looked  out the window. I could feel Steve  looking at me just I dint show it. 

"You want something  to eat" 

"No thanks" I replied.  

I don't know why i never ate it was just a habit  I picked up from the red room. Normally we wouldn't  eat for weeks in there so I was just use to not having much. 

 "Maybe we should  talk" He said. His voice  was stern but caring . 

"About what"

 "You know what natasha" he said sarcastically. 

"I don't  know Rodgers , a-lot  has happened  today" I said with a-slight  chuckle to relive the tension. 

"The kiss natasha..... why did you walk away" 

 "Rodgers I--" He cut me off before  I could continue. 

"Nat I know you have feelings for me, and you know I have feelings for you. Why cant you just accept it, you are always flirting with me but you never act on it." 

I sat in silence  looking down, I didn't  know what  to say. 

"I think I should go to bed" I said quietly  

"NO NAT" 

his voice was getting loader I could tell he was getting mad, I was scared for a sec he normaly never rose his voice at me.l

"YOU CAN'T DO THIS..." 

"I CAN RODGERS" I was getting frustrated  

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I CAN"

"Yes tell me nat" 

His voice was getting softer again, he looked  like he was about to cry but I new he wouldn't.

".... I don't  deserve you!"

"What do you mean?!

"You are captain f-ing America . Mr golden boy. I AM A SPY, A KILLER!.....You don't  deserve me" 

He looked at me in shock I new he would start  giving  me a pep talk on how I do so I continued

"You don't  know me Rodgers not really.....There is a-lot  they don't  put in my file, A lot  they don't  know  about and if you knew you would never look at me the same."

"You don't  know that natasha"

His voice was almost a whisper 

'I do, i have done stuff they put in horror  movies" I said with a slight chuckle , I didn't  like how serious it was getting

I could feel my eyes starting to water. It was too much, I wasn't  going to have a met down infornt of golden boy, He had already seen too  much today with the red room incident. I stood up quickly and started to walk to my room leaving him there.