Written In the Stars

Chapter 1

Chap 1

"The baby is Liam's. Liam is the father." Steffy sighs sadly, letting the results drop to the floor.

I look over at her, and see the clear disappointment in her voice and eyes. I grimace lightly at her words, while trying to hide my feelings of excitement that the baby is mine. I put the grimace on my face for everyone's benefit, but especially Hope's. I know this is probably destroying her, but I can't help but feel happy that this baby is ours, mine and Steffy's baby. This baby is a testament to what we share, our love, and what it has created.

I love Steffy. It is simple as that. I have never stopped loving her. My love for her has been deeply hidden, since she "gifted" me to Hope. I've wanted to be with her since even before Steffy did that, but I knew she wasn't an option. She didn't want me. So, I had to accept what was and try to move on. It hurt me deeply because I wanted to go back to her, I just didn't know how to tell Hope. I can't describe what it is that I feel for Steffy. What I have always felt for Steffy, since the moment I saved her from that tub. I didn't know it then, but that moment is when our souls forever entwined. She's the one who has loved me the deepest, but she also the one who has hurt me the deepest. She is home to me. She's the light at the end of the tunnel. She excites me, lightens me and makes me a better person. I love who we are together. Despite everything that has happened between us, the good and the bad, she still continues to own my heart, my soul. I've buried those feelings for so long because I've had no other option but to bury them.

It's now clearer than ever to me. I couldn't be strong and say what I wanted and stick to it. I let people trample on me, and make me feel guilty, while I was just worried about not hurting one of these two women. My weaknesses ultimately cost me, Steffy and our life together. But now knowing this, it only confirms, what my underlying feelings are. I want to be with Steffy and our babies. I want my family back. I want it more than anything.

Steffy finally speaks, breaking the silence in the room and bringing me out of my selfish thoughts. "I'm sorry Finn, you have no idea how much, I wanted this baby to be yours," Steffy cries.

Her words wound me. There are clear tears in her eyes. I know she's hurting. I just want to take her in my arms and soothe her. I want to make everything okay for her. Even if we had the option, I would never take that night back between us. It was beautiful. Our souls connected again that night. It gave us our baby. That night truly reminded me of what I gave up for Hope.

"You just HAD to go after my husband, Steffy! You just couldn't take the fact that Liam had moved on with ME! That he was happy with me. You couldn't just leave us alone. We were happy! We had this beautiful family that you came in and destroyed!" Her eyes are filled with rage. She is boiling. If looks could kill, Steffy would be dead. "All you do is take, take, take," she yells.

"Hope, I---I can't apologize enough for what's happened. You'll never know how much I regret that night. I regret it, I do, but the one thing I do want to be crystal clear with you about is, I do not regret this baby. This baby is a blessing, a gift of life regardless of who fathered it. I love this baby with all my heart."

I hold back my sadness at Steffy's comment. She regrets that night. I don't regret it. I can't regret it, our souls connected. It was as if my soul was where it belonged. With her is where I belonged.

"It doesn't change—" Hope started

"Hope, let her finish," Finn piped in, finally saying something. I could only imagine what is going through his mind.

"Finn, it's okay," Steffy calmed. "I do deserve whatever she wants to say."

"Steffy, it wasn't just you, who created this situation. People make mistakes," he said, smiling slightly while taking a few steps towards her. Finn glanced quickly over at me, then back at Steffy. "We need to move forward from here."

"Hope, this will work out. I want this to work out. I can still be Kelly's father, along with this new baby's father and be committed to our family."

"Were you committed, when you decided not to confront Thomas on what you saw that night? Were you committed when you went to Steffy's that night and slept with her?!!?", she screamed at me.

I try walking over to her, but she throws her hand up at me, as if to tell me to stop.

"Don't Liam," she grits through her teeth. "NOTHING, you say will or could make this situation better. How could you do this to us AGAIN? This is truly never ending for the three of us, is it?"