Written In the Stars

Chapter Part 15

Chapter 15

It's been a few months now, since we told Kelly about the baby, Steffy is close to 35 or 36 weeks now. We haven't had any significant progress in moving our family forward together. Steffy is still completely adamant that I have nothing to do with this baby, and that I sign my rights over to the baby. She hasn't given me any clear sign that she is going to come back to me. We've had moments, with a few lingering kisses, or declarations of love, here and there, but not enough significant moments for her to say she wants to come back to me. She's really dug her heels in.

I know she still loves me and I still believe deep down she wants to be with me. It just confirms for me, how deeply I have pierced and hurt her. I'm clueless to what else to do to show her how much I love her. She just keeps pushing me away. I still can't imagine Finn raising my children. It pains me to no end when I think about how she is slowly slipping from my grasp, and that the door for our future, our family is almost closed.

I pour myself a cup of coffee. I am in Wyatt's kitchen, getting ready for the day. Steffy has called me over. She said, she wanted to spend a family day together, since once the baby comes everything will change. I can't wrap my head around all that has happened over the last few months.

"You are up earlier," Wyatt says, coming in from the other room.

"Yeah, Steffy wants to have a family day today." I hand him the cup of coffee I poured for myself, and go to the cabinet to get another coffee cup. "It's getting pretty close, and she wants to spend some family time together before the baby arrives and everything changes." I shake my head in sadness, "It is going to happen really soon,"

"Yeah, she's due almost any day now right?" Wyatt asks.

"A few more weeks, but yes it's pretty close."

"Does she still have her force field up? Has there been an improvement on that level?"

"More than ever," I say running my hands through my hair. "Every thing I do, it's not enough. I don't know what else to do. I've done everything I can do to show her, how committed I am and I get nothing. I am at a loss."

"And other than you, we really have no support. I have no support in winning Steffy back. Everyone thinks it's crazy and a long shot, that I don't deserve her and that they are glad she finally woken up. They either don't believe that I can win her back, they are indifferent, or they are angry that I am fighting for her. "

"Wait, who's angry?" he asked confused.

"Nobody's opinion that I really care about," I reply running my hand through my hair.

"Ah, it's Hope and Brooke," he guessed.

"Yeah," I exhale sharply. "Not that I care, but it's still annoying. I can't even go pick up Beth, without Hope saying something about my quest for Steffy, or being passive aggressive."

I've also been fighting off her not so subtle flirtations and the kisses she will try to plant on me here and there. I push her away, every single time, and reiterate that it is Steffy that I want.

Brooke is the same, I feel like she searches me out, just to present Hope's case and the reasons why I shouldn't fight for Steffy, but return to Hope. They are bitter, which I can't blame them, but it's getting old, move on." I pick up my arm and motion towards Wyatt. "That's the other thing; I've done everything in my power to defend Steffy to Hope and Brooke. I've made my choice very clear and why it is my choice. I have called them out on their choices and hypocrisy, and have asked them to leave Steffy alone. I apologized to them for how I've acted and treated her over the last decade, and it's still not enough. They still make comments, pressure me, and can't let go. They have already numerous times, have gone and attacked Steffy in her office. I've walked in a few times when Brooke and Hope were berating her and trying to make her feel guilty. It's really unacceptable. Their anger needs to be directed at me."