My Diary

July 27, 2021

I should be happy. Most ppl would be happy. But I'm not and I don't know why. Its so fucking frustrating to be upset and angry and sad without a plausible reason. I feel like Im just waiting for the other shoe to drop for something to go wrong because everything always goes wrong when I need it to go right. 

I saw a poem on tik Tok and I liked it a lot, and I hate poems like fr fr but this one was good 

"How did I go from the girl who loved everyone and everything,

a girl who loved early mornings, 

a girl who loved to be outside.

The girl who always had a smile on her face, 

because nothing could go wrong.

To a girl who now lays in bed all day, 

a girl who can't wait for the day to pass. 

A girl who just wants to be left alone, 

because everyone seems to be getting on her nerves,

The littlest things setting her off.

Where did that happy little girl go 

I really wish she were here right now

because I can't stand who I am now left with"

by @Irwrites._ 

that was so fucking morbid my god you'd think I was suicidal 

I am but thats not the point here. I think about the little girl I used to be sometimes and I miss her. She was forced to grow up though and I can't change that so its no big deal yk things happen. As long as I don't think about it Im fine. 

Started July 27, 2021 around 10:00pm 

Finished July 28, 2021 around 1:46 am 

~nalani