Started 7:55 October 31, 2021
You stupid stupid boy. I don't know what i did. If i did anything at all. Ik you're going through something so maybe it's not me. I keep thinking of the possible situations that led to this and with each different possibility i wonder why you didn't want to turn to me. I understand that a lot of people prefer to deal with things on their own but i have the slightest of feeling that instead of turning to me you turned to someone else. no matter what i am here for you. i care about you more than i should. maybe you won't see this, but in my heart i hope you do because this is what i cant say to your face. 7 weeks we've known each other for 7 weeks. We first met however a little bit before that. Typing this sounds so dramatic but i don't know how else to explain. Everything reminds me of you. It shouldn't, i think it does because i'm actively looking for you. You were my escape. You, isabelle, alex, jordon, i severely downtalk my issues with my mental health and i feel like that's part of the reason i get attached so easily to someone. You were my distraction. You were a very attractive distraction too. But then you stopped being a distraction and i started caring about you. Did you know that now whenever i go to target or Walmart or Walgreens or cvs or 7-eleven or ANY PLACE that sells hot wheels or matchboxes i look. I look for cars i think you may like and i seriously consider buying it for you and then i realize that i am pathetic and the most not sad sounding way. I have the ability to read the room which is why i haven't called you or text you no matter how much i want too. What i really want to say is that i care abt you and i hope that you're ok or i hope that you will
be ok. I hope that i can move on bc regardless of whatever this situation-ship was i want to be your friend bc you're someone i see myself
being friends with. But what can i say im an idiot who's attached and you're a boy who wants nothing to do with me. But hey, i miss you. I wanted to tell you that earlier. I wanted to tell you that when i saw you on friday. but i'll just keep it on here for my sake and yours.
Nalani
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Ended on 8:25 October 31, 2021
YOU ARE READING
My Diary
Non-FictionThe title should explain it. Why am I posting it where anyone can see? I don't know.
