brooklyn baby (N.H)

09

I stared at him, waiting for him to say 'just kidding' or tell me that he didn't mean in that way.

But he doesn't say anything, he's just staring at me with a smirk on his face. "Um what did you say?" I ask.

"You wanna have some fun?" He say again like I didn't hear the first time.

"What do you mean?"

"Do you want me to fuck you?" He articulate to me so I can understand.

"What? No, why did you even ask that?" I asks as I take a step back from him.

"Because this is boring, I want some action" he say.

"Um yeah uh I can be here with you if you want if we're not going to fuck okay?"

"I'm not going to force you, so if you stay here I'm not going to fuck you if you not change your mind" he answers. That was the best answer I could get from a guy to be honest. I walk over to the couch and sit next to him.

"You wanna to look at something on the TV?" I ask as I take up the remote control to the TV in my room.

"No" he say. I put down the remote control again and then I just look at him. He was still wearing the clothes he had on the show, just a normal white t-shirt, very dark blue jeans and a necklace. He was also still wearing the sunglasses he had, and always have. I think I've only seen him without sunglasses once, when I had a panic attack. He's showing off his tattoo's in his arms and up to his neck. I can also see that there's a small text tattooed behind his ear. I can't read it now because I'm not wearing any glasses and it's too small for me to read now.

"I need a cigarette, you wanna follow?" I then stand up to go out to my balcony.

"Sure" he say and stand up to walk after me out to the balcony.

I take a cigarette package from my bed table and the lighter. When we got out I give one of Niall and put one in my mouth. I take up the lighter to his my mouth and then to mine to light the cigarettes.

We both leans over the railing. Looking out over the backyard. We can see the other boys on the other end of the backyard, partying and listening to music loud, dancing to it.

I look at Niall to my right. I look him up and down.

He's so hard to understand.

I don't understand anything that has with him to do, he gives me mixed signals about everything with how he are as a person.

Sometimes he seems like he doesn't like me, the next moment he wants to fuck me and helping me through the panic attack and stayed with me the whole night. I don't understand.

"What are your secrets?" I ask to get something out of him so I can understand him better.

He looks at me, takes out his cigarette and breaths out all of the smoke on me. He raises his one brow and look at me up and down.

"What do you mean?"

"You're so confusing, in one moment you like me, one you're not and-" he stops me.

"Why do you care about if I like you or not?" He asks.

"Because I don't really know how to act when I'm with you"

He leans closer to me and wait a little before he wispers "Some day you will know all my secrets, but I can't tell you now, baby"

He leans back again and then pushes away from the railing to go inside again, to end the conversation.

I follow him with my eyes and when he's out of my sight I look to my left to see the other guys party.

All of the guys then starts to run toward the pool, Liam, Harry and Louis jumping in it with all clothes on.