Easy Breathing Baby

dear Jake,

idfk okay?
idk why people die.
or why it hurts so much.
but i know that it breaks you,
it fucking tears you apart,
and you go through this stage where you can't breathe,
you can't cease crying you shake,
you shiver you feel the loss of life,
and your heart hurts so much,
you think it's been run over by a fucking semi truck,
you don't see any light in your god damn pit of darkness you wish you had done more than you had.
and you try to trick yourself into thinking they're still here,
but in reality they aren't
death hurts like a bitch and i wish i didn't but it does.