"Ohayoooo Daring"
Akira was a little taken aback when she received a good morning text from Kuroo . But she cringed at the word "Daring" like ewwwww I'm not your daring , Daring !
"Ohayo", she replied .
"So what's your plan for the day ?"
"Nothing much...will just watch anime in my den"
"That sounds like a plan daring"
"Mmmmm I guess ! 😸"
"Neko emoji !"
"Hai cuz I love cats and not just cats I love animals !!! But to be honest I think I'm just an reincarnation of a cat cause I behave like one always !!!! 😸😸"
"That's news ! I love Nekos , they are pretty precious"
"Ayoooo they are !"
Akira felt at ease with the conversation over cats . She can go on and on with this topic .
"So tell me, what does Neko-chan like ?"
Akira smiled at the word "Neko-chan" , it's pretty "kawaiii" (cute). So , she played along -
"Well , Neko-chan loves reading manga and watching anime and apart from that she loves to cook and read tones and tones to f books !"
"That's pretty predictable!"
"Eh ! Is it ?"
Akira raised an eyebrow and thought , " Ugh, another I-know-everything type !" . Such a turn off for her ! Like she appreciates people who can actually go through the layers a character present in the society but not the ones who says "I-can-read-people-which-is-why-I-am-superior" kinda people. And she felt the later aura from Kuroo.
"Yes , it is ! I told you , I have observed you for a couple of days and you seem to lay low which is kind of exciting for me....I want to know more"
Akira narrowed her eyes , she thought for a moment and replied . Somehow she felt like with each passing text she is going deeper into the dark abyss , a little scared but the temptation is overwhelming, she is curious even though she knows what happens to a curious mind !
"Mmmmm okay , ask me what you want and I will answer"
"It's not about asking Daring , let me clear things up a little for you - let's create a tiny little world of ours which you and I share and no one is allowed , you can do whatever you want and I will not judge"
Akira flinched at the question and shouted at the phone , " How much of a superior narcissist are you to say that to me ?" , then calmed herself down and typed -
"And why would I do that ?"
"Because I want to learn what lies beyond that exhaustion of yours"
Akira threw the phone and shouted , " Huh! Stop acting high and mighty when I clearly know you gonna stop talking after you have known what lies 'beyond that exhaustion'" , then suddenly she realised , "Did I just threw my phone because of a stranger ?"
The thought hit her hard ! She understood that she was caught in the invisible chains when she threw her phone away . Reactions , even though Kuroo is not in front of her , she is reacting to his words .
She clenched her teeth , this ain't gonna happen ! She won't let him have his way with her .
She took her phone and saw another text from Kuroo
"But of course take your time little one , I don't like to force things up !"
Akira didn't replied . She was furious somehow ,it's been days since she felt any emotions of rage , excitement or anything.
"What is he doing to me ?" , she thought to herself .
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Humans as a whole are disappointing, Akira was reading a story on her Wattpad it was a bdsm genre where a sissy was made to do some really humiliating stuff . So Akira commented her thoughts just like her reader do ! They openly criticise her and she lets them to do that because it actually gives her a better understanding of the human thought process . But she might have offended the author by saying that she was worried about the sissy and the author strictly said to her that she should stop reading it if anything was triggering her ! - nothing new just another stranger misunderstanding Akira's train of thoughts and not realising that their exist people for whom fictional characters are more important than a real human being ! Because a fictional character can never behave out of their choice unless you are a Macbeth or a Hamlet , who dismissed the existence of Shakespeare and uttered -
" Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing."
"Nothing .
When you begin to think about nothing everything gets intensified, your very existence gets threatened by it . A void wraps you around and there is no escape .
Why do people say something and do something just the opposite of their saying - ultimately making the words go in vain - as if nothing mattered back then , as if nothing existed back then !
Contradiction and some more contradictions. You have no control over it . It just happens , it feels like as if this duality is engraved deep inside us and you cannot run from it , you cannot pretend that you are unaware of it once you get to know that it exists within you and then again you are too powerless to do something about it ! It can't be helped .
As the time passes and you grow a little older , you tend to go quitter and the more quite you are , the more hunters you have around you but then again you know you have the upper hand because you know places to hide while people think that you are just wise . No, no one is wise enough to escape this reality , attaining true wisdom and raising above the situation is like paving way for Nietzsche's Superman theory which exists only in pages . Again it's a very controversial topic to talk about ; I mean how to know what is good and what is bad ? Who tagged or who made a list of all the good items and all the bad items that this is good and this is bad ? How you define good and how do you define bad ? - we humans are dipped in duality , when something doesn't go our way or if someone doesn't act the way we want them to - they are tagged as bad or anti-social because they don't follow the decorum of the society or the illusion that we have created inside our head for the person ; again comes a question what is a society ? Where humans are put together and some superior "I-know-everything" kind of a person leads it so that every human can attain their purpose of life - but does everyone is provided with the same circumstances - No, of course not - we cannot have the same circumstances or the same mental strength to get through everything . We , humans tend to overlook all the unnecessary aspect until and unless we are hit by it personally and then we are aware of it and finally we take actions against it but until then , NOTHING .
We don't accept what we are - a pitiful existence . Nothing extravagant then apes or zebras , just an existence who is doomed to fade away unless you try to make yourself immortal through your work and people remember you , until then you are a Nothing."
Akira Roy .
