The Director Kang

Feel Good

Joohyun.

Joohyun.

Joohyun.

That was on Seulgi's head right that second, she didn't believe a Bae Joohyun stood really right in front of her door, she was slightyly thinking that was dream, but she was here, looked at her with very loving but look so tired gaze, the dark circle visible lightly and the eyes looked not as bright as usual, it showed clearly she was exhausted.

"I was having photoshoot in Japan."

Seulgi didn't answer for seconds.

"And?"

The monolid cursed at herself, she didn't mean to be that cold but somehow she had to.

"I asked my manager to drop me here." Joohyun smiled a bit.

"Why?" Another cold reply.

"Because I heard you are sick."

Seulgi's heart felt like getting squeezed, no matter how hard she denied, Joohyun still the one whom be able to shake her heart effortlessly.

"Go home." Seulgi tried to close her door but Joohyun's hand stopped it, the monolid woman only standing behind her door.

"I am home." Joohyun answered softly.

"Stop it." Seulgi closed her eyes, she dealt with her familiar feeling again, a pain.

"Seulgi, I—"

"Stop it!" She raised a her voice a bit, her tear was falling smoothly but she wiped it immediately.

The silence sounded so loud between them at that moment, Joohyun felt the pain as much as Seulgi, she knew the monolid woman tried her best to hold her feeling, she could be able to see clearly how Seulgi was very struggled and suffered because of her, she was almost crying too but she couldn't do that in front of the person she did hurt badly, she must be strong, she was the one whom need to pull them from this painful circle, and she was still fighting for it.

"Alright.." Joohyun smiled in pain and pulled her hand from Seulgi's apartment door, she just let incase Seulgi wanted to close it. "..I wont force you." She continued, breathed heavily.

Seulgi didn't say any word, she was still hiding behind the door, if she looked at Joohyun's eyes again, Iit would break her wall instantly.

"Get well soon, Seulgi-ya.." Joohyun's voice bit shaking because she held her tears. "..dont have nightmare and have a good rest, because you deserve it." She finished her words perfectly with teary eyes.

Still no reply from Seulgi, but she didn't close the door either, she was just standing still, holding her tears and her feeling painfully.

"I am going.." Joohyun said again "..goodnight."

Joohyun smiled once again eventho Seulgi didn't see it and finally decided to go, only few steps she stopped her walk, hoping Seulgi changed her mind and came out to call her, but she heard the sound of door closed instead. Right at that second, finally her tears falling like a small river, those flawless skin was wet instantly, she couldn't hold it anymore, she knew everything was her fault, but she never prepared even once in my life to experience this, for years she used to live with Seulgi's love, being Seulgi's one and only baby, but now she had to stand alone, fighting alone, crying alone, without Seulgi.

"It hurts.." Joohyun covered her mouth to cry loud. "..I wont ever get use to this no matter how many times you side me in your life."

Joohyun wiped her tears roughly and continued her walking. In the other side, the monolid woman only leaned her back on the door, she was still standing there, eyes closed and shaking lips, she was near to cry.