Regret- J.M

-6

I walked into my house, so much bad memories here

I sighed as I sat down on the sofa, I decided that I wasn't going to school tomorrow ,

I walked up stairs and dragged myself into my bathroom

I took my clothes of me and got into the shower, I let the warm water run down my body

As I let the water run I thought about everything life , me , school , my mothers death , my father

To be honest I have no memories of my father , my mother never talked about him , every time I brought him up she would change the subject or get angry

I feel like it was my fathers fault my mother changed into what she was , I can remember my mother was not always like this , she used to be kind and loving but I think I was like 4 she just changed her lifestyle , I don't have many good memories with her mostly bad ones , she was only 29 she had her whole life ahead of her , the doctors didn't tell me nothing about her death thy just told me to not worry , to be honest if I died my mother wouldn't even cry but at the end of the day she is my mother and I will always love her no matter what

I turned of the water and changed into my pjs, I dried my hair and looked at my appearance in the mirror, I looked dead my skin was pale I had bags under my eyes my eyes were red and puffy and my cheeks were sticky due to the tears

I walked downstairs and looked in the cupboards , there wasn't much food I will have to go grocery shopping tomarra , I was left all my mothers money and everything else since she had no one else to give it to

I made a bowl of cereal and sat down on the sofa

The rest of the night I just lied around and watched television