Home is Where You Are

Josh

I'm sorry this chapter is really long I just couldn't find a good place to end! Comment and like up! I could use some advice! I also know this isn't Sunday I was just really bored in class.

I watched her walk across the parks parking lot with her brother. It took everything not to run up and hug her and say I'm sorry. I let her down. 

While she walked away Ashely came bounding up to me.

"Hey sexy" she purred running her hand up and down my abs.

Normally I would have had her in the back seat of my truck by now for something quick before school started but with Riley in sight there was no girl who could make me forget her.

"Not today" I said removing her hand and putting a good foot or so in between us.

"Awe why not," she asked trying to step closer.

I will admit Ashely is hot, but she and all the other easy girls at this school having nothing on Riley. I have no clue why I thought they could help me forget her.

I walked away from Ashely hearing her mumble some words I couldn't quite make out.

I walked into the school as soon as the bell rang and I headed straight to class knowing coach would kill me if I got another detention.

-Lunch-

I walked in and sat down at the head of our long team table. Of course all they guys had there girls there to so out took up about a good third of the lunch room.

I watched as she walked in skipping the lunch and rejecting her brothers hand. She came straight to me. Our eyes were locked in some war.

Then Ashely stepped in between our paths and started talking to Riley. I could she Riley's posture shift, as she became tense.

I got out of my chair and walked up to them. I could here Ashley trying to recruit Riley into cheerleading.

"No thanks I'm good," she said trying to move around him.

When Ashely saw me it physically hurt to see Riley's face change looking at the ground in between us.

Ashley was running her hands up and down my arm.

"Excuse me," she said trying to get buy us.

As she tried to move around us she hit Ashley. 

"Excuse you slut," Ashley barked at her. 

"Don't even start Ashely" I grabbed Riley's hand and pulling her to the lunch line.

"You didn't have to do that, any of it. I could have handled her all on my own, and pay for my own lunch" She said as pulled out my money for her lunch.

"Its responsible to stand up for my best friend and pay for her meals," I responded pushing her plate towards her.

I knew she did not want more than friends. But in order to build the trust back up we had to be friends.

"I'm not your best friend. You left me and when you did I found a distraction. I got a new boyfriend, well now ex-boyfriend. But anyways that's not the point. The point is that I'm not your friend," she said watching my expressions change.

"You have to be joking," i said trying to keep my emotions neutral.

"No joke," she said starting to pick at her food. " his name is Ryder."

I slammed my fist on table causing everyone to look at us. I picked up my sandwich and thew it in the trash before walking out the lunchroom

I stormed off I don't know why it wouldn't have been fair for her not date but I could clean picking but it just wasn't. I walked out of there pissed why wouldn't she take me back? All I wanted was a friendship and she wouldn't even allow that.

Everyone knew Ryder. He was mixed up with drugs and abuse. The two things she would never be mixed up with. He is a hot-head and it scared me what he could have done to her.

I didn't expect it but she came running after me like she used to and jumped right on back for me to carry her. But I was just so mad. I set her down nice and slowly and started to walk off again. I wasn't mad at her though I was made at Ryder and myself.

"If you walk away from me right now you will never have me back. You will never know why I said I wasn't your friend," she yelled after me making me stop in my tracks.

We were alone in the hall way just me and her. I was on one end she was on the other.

"You broke my trust. In order to be friends we have to rebuild it. I just want friends right now." She said with each word taking a new step. Till I felt her right behind me waiting for me to turn around.

I spun so fast on her I nearly nocked her over I pushed her up against the lockers putting almost no space between us but enough for me to ask with a cocky grin...

"Can iI be your new friend?"

She answered with a kiss on my cheek that I have missed so much. I needed her. I needed her with me every second I needed her warmth and the realization of her kiss told me that.

The realization then hit me if it were any girl I would take it farther pull her into my truck right now. But it isn't any other girl every tear means something to me its important to me. So i pulled away from the kiss and that looked she gave me those little puppy dog eyes would of have me on her right then and there but I needed self control I needed to prove to her that I'm still her hero.  That I can still be the best friend.

Even though I know I'm far from it.