♡﹒THRILL RIDE﹒▨ ꜝ

Chanhee

When he realises you were serious about moving on...

This is no way their actual behaviors and being in a toxic relationship is not some fantasy. Ite mentally and physically exhausting. I have seen alot of this or that tiktoks and girls ned up choosing toxic over healthy?

Was it in your mind? You were not entirely sure. Where was he when you needed him? Did he think about you like you did about him? Were his thoughts filled about you? Or were you not worth his thoughts? The room was dark portraying your thoughts , the atmosphere was cold , chilling your skin as you tried to warm your skin , your dull eyes staring at your phone.

Eyes hopeful for a message , as the clock struck 12 , you closed your eyes as you sighed. Chanhee had ghosted you ....for the fifth time. His friends hadn't even replied back to your texts. Were the rumors true? He never loved you? That you were just a play toy for him?

maybe .

You clearly knew he would come back tomorrow , begging forgiveness and even showing some tears in public , automatically guilt-tripping you into accepting him back. You wanted to stop it , you hated yourself for accepting him back every time. But the Chanhee had that power over you.

Pulling yourself up from your bed , you looked in the mirror. A chuckle escaping your lips , you looked pathetic, you stood up , getting yourself ready. You looked so thin since chanhee preferred you that way. You won't say anything since he knew if he left you would be left with no one.

Slinging your backpack across your shoulder , you walked to a nearby cafe , and a coffee sounded nice. As you walked in you heard girls whisper " isn't that New's girlfriend?" " Oh her? She's a toy for him ."

Toy , that sounded like a knife was being stabbed into you. But would you accept it? Never. Chanhee loved you , he himself said so. You were so under his spell you failed to see the reality.

Sitting down, you closed your eyes as someone coughed " Can I take your order ?." you opened your eyes and smiled automatically seeing the waiter.

" Hi Vernon ." you said softly.Vernon was your classmate, a pleasant one at that and at least someone you could talk to. He didn't judge you openly and welcomed you.

" just a cup of coffee ." you said as his eyes widened , he retorted " Of course no! You look so thin! I'll get you something, on the house !" he announced before walking away. You blinked as you pulled out your phone. You froze when you saw Chanhee's message asking to meet you before class.

A plate of steaming bacon and eggs were placed in front of you with a cup of coffee , Vernon grinned " enjoy your food , you deserve to be happy ."

You had to admit that brought a smile onto your face. You happily ate the food not forgetting to tip a little bit more and a thank you note scribbled on tissue paper . which you saw Vernon pick up.

As you neared your classroom you saw chanhee waiting for you , you hoped as he scrolled down his phone.

" chanhee ?" You murmured as he looked up , he smiled and pulled you into a room . you immediately felt suffocated. His hands, which used to be warm, felt like cold metal against your skin.

" I'm sorry I couldn't text back , I was busy with Lia for our project ." he said as you bit your lips. Lia again , you frowned " Did it take so long to complete ?" you couldn't help as an accusing tone came out. Chanhees eyes widened as he started saying " you don't believe me? Like of course you're such an insecure girl but CANT YOU UNDERSTAND I CAN'T BE AROUND YOU ALL THE TIME ."he shouted towards the end as you whimpered.

He grabbed your face harshly " you know i love you right?" he said as he whispered " I'm the only one for you right." you were close to crying as you nodded " yes chanhee..."