Lost Ray of the Sun

Chapter 1

Who are you?

Who am I? I don't know. Which part of me would people like to know? Asking who am I is the worst question someone could ask because I'm finding it so hard to answer.

I feel like - Yes, I do exist but I have different kinds of me that I tell to other people and that other people know. It hits to the point that I also don't know myself, I don't know who am I. I'm just lost... I'm just someone who exist but still finding my purpose and where I do belong.

"The hell..." I muttered when I passed to the group of man.

It freak me out when people are staring at me. That's why I hate going out when the sun is still up! I don't even know how I look like, if they are going to judge and laugh at me.

I hate people. They are just... a monster in my thoughts. I don't know how to deal with this feeling.

I shook my head and fixed my sando. I rolled my eyes.

Why are they even looking.

My eyes widened. Oh, great. My heart was beating so fast in nervousness! It happened so fast, biglang nasa harap na 'ko ng isang nakaparadang motor.

"Oh shit... Shit. Shit!" I held on the brake so tight but bumangga pa rin ako dahilan para matumba 'yun.

People stopped and looked at me! Fuck people!

I stood up and held my e-bike. I waited there for a minute kung may lalabas bang may-ari nito. I tapped my feet on the ground. I can't wait for so long... I feel people stares and I hate it.

I smiled when someone went out to help me na buhatin 'yung motor. I was about to ask him if he knows who's the owner but he went back in their house without saying a word!

I sighed and looked at my friend before, he's smirking to me. A shit. "Sinong may-ari?" Pagbaling ko. Nagkibit-balikat lang siya. "Who!?" I shouted in frustration.

"Hindi ko alam." He answered, smirking.

Walang kwenta. As far as I remember, kilala niya lahat ng tao dito but now that I need a who, hindi niya alam. I'm so embarrassed. A lot of people just saw me! Thank God, I don't have any sugat!

Dumiretso ako sa bahay dahil sa hiya. Hindi ko na nilingon ang kung sino man. Well, kung sino man ang owner nun, welcome naman siya sa bahay. Talk to my parents and they can pay.

"Sa'n ka galing?" He asked.

Naabutan ko siyang nililinis 'yung motor niya. I parked the e-bike beside the bikes and shrugged to him.

"Umikot lang." I politely answered.

I didn't mean to be rude but I left him there without saying anything again.

Naabutan ko 'yung kapatid ko sa loob na naglalaro sa IPad niya habang si Mommy ay nagluluto. I don't need to greet them. Dumiretso kaagad ako sa kwarto. I need to tell to someone what just happened.

Well, I'm confident that we can pay and say sorry to the owner but I'm still nervous about my parents will say to me lalo na kung may sumugod na naman dito at may babayaran na lang sila bigla. I mean, may nagawa akong mali pero hindi ko sinabi. My mother will surely get mad about it.

I lay down on my bed and took my phone from my side drawer.

'Caleb! Guess what just happened!' I sent him.

This is just a minor mistake.

Cali told me that she's busy reviewing kaya hindi ko pwedeng istorbohin.

Caleb immediately replied. I'm feeling nervous but I'm still laughing. What just happened is epic!

'Nakabangga ako. Nakakainis 'yung mga tao! Pinagtinginan pa nila ako!' I ranted.