Lost

Part 1: breaking news

I woke up at 6 am. I jumped out of bed because I was really excited for this day. It's my 5 month anniversary with Jim. We always celebrate the date we got together. I am planning to say I love u for the fist time to him today at dinner. I think he will say it back. I can't wait.
I went to bathroom and took a quick shower and brush my teeth. Then I got dressed. I put on a really cute red mini dress I bought yesterday for this special day. I did my makeup really nicely and then picked out which shoes I want to wear today. I picked my dcMartens. I think I look really good. I also took a morning mirror selfie and posted that on my insta story. I took my school bag, my phone and went downstairs.
Went to the kitchen. I said good morning to my dad. He was making breakfast. He made pancakes because he know that it's my anniversary with Jim. I tell him everything so he knows me pretty well.
Kiera: So... I think I will say I love u to Jim tonight.
Dad: Ouhh really?! You don't think that it is a little too fast to say those words?
Kiera: No!! I think that I really do love him dad. He has helped me a lot with my mental health. I can't imagine my life without him.
Dad: Okey, baby. I was just asking. I don't want you to rush in and then regret everything you said. Just be careful, okey?
Kiera: okey dad. I understand where you are coming from. I love you.
Dad: I love you too. I think that Jim is here, you need to go to school.
Kiera: Ouhh okey, thank you for the delicious breakfast. Bye, see you later.
Dad: Bye, baby. Have a great day!
Kiera: Thanks!!

I grabbed a jacket and rushed to Jims car. He has a Jeep. I hoped in and hugged him. He smiled.
Jim: Hey, gorgeous! Happy anniversary!!!
Kiera: Hey!! Thank you!! So... where are we going tonight?
Jim: You will see.
Kiera: Okey!

We then talked all the way to school like every morning. I'm so lucky to have found someone like him. I really do love him. Hope he loves me too. School was pretty boring. I had Math, Geography, English and P.E. I hate sports. I also had a mini panic attack at lunch today because they did not have orange juice today, but Jim was there to calm me down and I took water instead.

After school I waited for Jim because he had an extra lesson today, but that okey. After 40 minutes he met up with me and then we went to this new vegan restaurant that opened up near us. I have never been here, so this was a great experience. The food was amazing. I'm not vegan, but I like to try new food. After we went to ice cream shop. I got vanilla because I'm basic, Jim got chocolate chip. We went to a park that was right next to the ice cream place. We sat down on a bench and talked a bit. I think that this is a perfect moment to say those 3 special words to him.
Jim, Kiera (talks at the same time): I need to tell you something!!
We bought got a bit silent, but then I...
Kiera: You go first. (I smile)
Jim: Okey. So then I was thinking about us and our future together.
Kiera: Yes, and?
Jim: You know that I am a senior at high school, right?
Kiera: Yes, I know. Why are you telling me this?!
Jim: I was just thinking that you always have to wait for me because I take extra classes to get in a great college.
Kiera: Yea, I know that, baby, but I'm fine. I can wait for you. I do all of my homework at that time, and then you arrive and we go and have a good time.
Jim: Well I don't want you to wait for me.
Kiera: What are you saying?!
Jim: I... ammmm. I think that we should... ammm. I think that we should break up!
I felt that I was just killed from inside out. I just froze. I didn't know what to say. I was shocked and devastated.
Kiera: What? Why? Is it because I wait for you everyday? I can do something else. I can.. I can ...
Jim: Kiera, stop. No, it's not that.
Kiera: So what is it then?
Jim: I just think that it is better for both of us to be apart. I feel like you spent all your time on me. I want you to take care of yourself not me. I want you to go to therapy again, because you stopped going because you wanted to spend more time with me. I'm just a bad influence on you. Sorry!
Kiera: I can do all of those things and still be with you, just don't leave me, please!
Jim: I'm sorry. But this is for the best.

I started to cry. He was my best friend and now I don't have anything. At that moment I knew that this is for real. He's not joking.

Kiera: Do you want to know what I wanted to tell you?
Jim: Go ahead.
Kiera: I wanted to tell you that I love you, I hoped that you would say it back, but now I know that you don't feel the same.
Jim: Kiera..
Kiera: Don't, I just. I can't..

I stood up and just ran away as fast as I could.
Kiera: Dad, can you come and pick me up, I'm at the park, bye.
Dad: Ki.....