Farewell, my Love

Us

Months passed and when the first snowflake fell to the ground later on covering earth in a white blanket of white frost, you and I confessed our true feelings.

It was a cold day but I felt warm inside, it was warm having you by my side. Your petite structure fitting perfectly fine underneath my embrace. Our hearts beating in one single rhythm, it was a moment I will never forget for only it was our first memory shared between you and I as a couple.

Even now, I can still feel you here with me. I will never forget that essence you left with me.

After confessing we went for hot chocolate then you excitedly told me to build a snowman with you. I laughed at such a particular request but agreed, we spent our whole day playing in the snow like two children first seeing snow in their entire lives.

But that did not matter to me, seeing you smile helped me kept going. I still couldn't believe you were mine, only mine. And I thought it'd always be that way.

Months passed, and we went on many dates, we spent countless days and nights together making our bond even deeper. It was blissful.

Looking back at those late-night talks when I used to climb up your window without getting caught by your parents and your obnoxious but undeniable cute Pomeranian. I wish I could go back, we would look at the night sky together, making promises that would be halfway fulfilled. I wonder, do you still remember them? Because I still do, they were deeply carved in my heart because I wanted you to have a happy life.

A year had passed, and on our first anniversary you were suddenly kidnapped. I was angry, and anxious for your safety. I searched for you everywhere, without any break. I lost weight, I began to have nightmares thinking you were dead, and only thinking that my heart sunk into a dark hole. My heart felt anxious, I was afraid of losing you, my light in my cloudy days and my music to my silent days I was afraid you'll be gone forever. You were my everything and thinking of you dead and lifeless made me angry because I was pathetic. I couldn't even keep you by my side and keep you safe.

I missed you terribly, I was scared of losing you. My heart is shattering knowing nothing of you. And then one day, I finally found you. You were hidden away in a cottage, tied with a rope and your beautiful hair chopped off. Your eyes that had a special shine were gone, and in its place were lifeless eyes that no longer wanted to meet mine. Your skin was full of bruises and cuts, and your smile was replaced by a tight grim line that did not utter a single word.

I hugged you, as I felt my chest filled with relief, rage, and sadness. I had finally gotten you back, but at what cost?

There were days I wished to disappear, I hated myself for not finding you earlier, but I buried those unwanted feelings deep down in my heart because I wanted to become your comfort and wanted to take away your sadness and pain.

I held your hand and dedicatedly kissed it, my love you were the one that brought morning dawns to my eternal nights with no end to be seen, and now it's my turn to be your light in that darkness that surrounds you.

For your sake I wished my weakness could be hidden, I pretended to be strong even when I wasn't, I pretended to be happy but I was filled with sadness watching you destroy yourself inside out. It destroyed me slowly watching you wither in pain after having nightmares of your memories during the kidnapping.

But...after all I'm human. And humans make mistakes. But I regret nothing at all.

Months after your kidnapping there was an assassination attempt, they wanted to kill you. But I was there, I saw it coming and like anyone would've done I protected you. I embraced you one last time. The warmth of your body feeling nice against my body. I grabbed my sword with the other hand and threw it but not before getting hit by an arrow on the back. The assassin died on impact of the sword.

I crumbled to the floor in pain the arrow had poison. I was dying.

You took me in your arms and cried. Your warm tears landing on my face. You screamed, you were desperate. I gathered enough strength and caressed your rosy cheeks and smiled bitterly.

"I love you more than life itself. My love, promise me you'll be happy no matter what." I whispered but it came out with gasps for I was having difficulty breathing.

"No! You promised me you would always be by my side. We'd grow old together one day with our children by our side. You promised! You can't die, not now...I need you." She screamed desperately as my blood began to pool underneath us.

"Darling, before I go...please smile for me one last time. I always loved that smile of yours. It's absolutely gorgeous." I said and tried my best to smile.

Her vision became blurry with tears and showed me a painful smile, a broken smile that uttered a thousand words. I breathed in her intoxicating sweet scent one last time before losing myself in a room filled with darkness.

Before I was completely gone, I heard her crying for me, her warm body against mine, shaking uncontrollably. I gave up my life for hers, that was my human mistake that I will choose over and over again for her sake so she has another chance to be happy.

My love, you were the best chapter that happened, but I never imagined it'd would end without me.