Farewell, my Love

Him

I roamed around the dark room with only my memories of you. I closed my eyes and your smile came into view. I don't know how long it'd passed but it felt like an eternity. Then one day I opened my eyes and there you stood. A bit older than the last time I saw you. Your eyes had their shine once again, and you looked healthy.

You looked beautiful, tears came to my eyes as I ran to embrace you but stopped myself when I saw him coming from behind. He grabbed your waist and pulled you in for a kiss. I looked away embarrassed. Who was he? I don't remember who he was but he came in and brought you the happiness I never could.

My heart felt numb and broken, I watched you smile at him. The same smile that used to be only for me was now his. Your eyes looked only at him and he only looked at you. I can see you are now his entire world just like you were mine. I clenched my chest as I suddenly was lost for air, not that it mattered anyway I was dead but even so I still carried some of my human emotions.

He was a tall stranger, tan as the beautiful mountains that meet the sky every dawn and sunset. He had pretty brown eyes and curly black hair. He is now the beholder of your heart and I don't blame you. After all, I did want you to be happy but I never knew it'd be this painful for me.

After knowing I was between the living and the dead, I watched you two grow fonder of each other. You talked to him like you once talked to me, you shared your troubles but not even once did he went to you for late night talks like we used to do. Those nostalgic conversations between us whom the moon and the star witnessed was something only shared by both of us.

I saw the first spring, and your eyes were brighter than the sun as I watched you say yes. You jumped in excitement in his arms. He embraced you in a hug and pulled you in a for a kiss. My heart felt empty, it no longer held butterflies, they were shot and shattered the moment I died.

My mother always told me that once a person died they no longer feel pain, but that was a beautiful lie. I felt everything as I watch him with you. It was bittersweet... I envied him for being there for you.

After months of watching over you, your wedding soon came and you looked stunning, a beautiful young lady you had become. I watched from a far corner as your father walked you through the aisle and then later on you saying " I do". Tears ran down my face and I crumbled to the floor because I've came to realize, that you will no longer be mine.

I smiled bitterly knowing that when the day came and she no longer walked in the world of the living, she would not come looking for me...she was going to look for him. I walked towards them and stared at her, her hazel eyes full of life, energy and love. She had the same eyes as when we were lovers, but this time I was not the one she was looking at. She was looking at him. Her new reason to move forward to.

She smiled, and I smiled too. Maybe ours wasn't a forever but it was for me. Darling you were my forever and will always will be. Maybe we couldn't be together this lifetime, but maybe the next we can, that is all I can ask for.

I looked over her husband and smiled bitterly, I hope he loves her as much as I loved her. I then began to walk away never looking back.