After that cuddling incident we didn't talk about that. Actually we didn't need to when our eyes started to speak a lot. The love was in the air, in our aura and I felt being the happiest version of myself. Love, the queen of emotions. The wonder it did when his dark brown eyes stayed on me for extra 2 seconds. There were moments when I caught him staring at me and I, dashing to washroom. God, I was never been in love, a normal looking girl like me couldn't ask for that from the Universe. Just his eyes on me and I went straight to washroom because I just couldn't control my heartbeat, profuse sweating and shallow breath. Though my leg was cured long back he didn't stop coming and I didn't want him to stop.
He started to leave at night. At the door he would just look at me for few seconds, smiling he would leave saying goodbye.
One day I heard the calling bell so early in the morning. With suspicion I opened it because I knew Jungkook could even do night watchman but definitely not the newspaper boy. When I opened the door I just shouted seeing that ghost masked person. That made that person to laugh. It was that donkey monkey my torture of life, Kalidas. I punched him in the nose and he groaned.
After some chit chat I came to know about his love for a girl in his relative circle. He told it was a childhood love and he decided to propose her. But hella nervous he was. So I gave him certain ideas about impressing her. Hearing my advice he looked at me like I grew two horns because me, Sherin was a zero in love subject but jungkook just changed it, changed me. He started to do the rehearsals but couldn't get that feel. So I asked him to imagine me as her. He flashed me a smile. Laughing I told Roll, Camera and Action. He started to speak from general greeting, pointed out his childhood memories with her (that moment me). Even I could feel his love, I was surprised to know that the mad Kalidas could madly love a girl. Then he did, proposed me(her). Oh my my!!! it was so emotional he literally cried. He narrated some incidents of their life where he started to feel love for her. She must have cared and helped him a lot. The strange thing was that I never knew about her, he never shared. Actually he never shared about his relatives and family since I had none and his family didn't like me. It was me who taught him to bunk the classes and other silly things which they hated.
After proposing he did the unexpected. He held my face slowly with love in his dark brown eyes and came inch by inch closer as if kissing. Since I knew it was just an act and he wouldn't kiss me I went with flow. Suddenly the door opened, we turned towards the door. There stood Jungkook glaring at us. His fist clutched. Kalidas was shocked to see him there at morning time, I was shocked to see Jungkook with cake and gift. Shit!!! My birthday!!! We three were in shock and still Kalidas was holding my face somewhat close to him, to his lip to be precise. Dropping everything harshly jungkook left closing the door. Not knowing what to do I wriggled out of Kalidas's hold like a fish and ran outside. Jungkook was walking too fast. To avoid gossips from my toxic neighbors about me he always left his bike at somewhere far from my home. I had to run to catch him. Being it to be a bright morning most of my neighbors were out, some were buying milk from milk man, some were buying fish and greens, in short all the aunties were witnessing my chase after angry bunny with bare feet. I could clearly hear their whispers which I cared less at that moment.
"Jungkoo- "Just leave, go and continue the shits you were doing." he told harshly slapping my hands off him. "What you are thinking is not true, we were just acting on his proposal. He wasn't about to kiss m- " turning he held my hand pulling me towards him. Before I even realised his lips was already on mine. My heart skipped a beat, it was my first kiss. Instead of pushing him for his action in public I closed my eyes. I tilted my head and stood on his toe to match his height and he held me by hip diving more into my lips. I just had no heart to push him. That day I came to know how much I love him and that I could kiss someone.
"That day I seriously didn't know you weren't acting. I am sorry." I told Kalidas looking at my juice recalling that day's happening. It was the first time we were openly talking about that day.
"Hey, enough of your sorry. Because of your baby I have forgiven you long back." he told smiling but his eyes shown something else. He still loves me.
After Kalidas left I finished my tuition and was waiting for Jungkook. He was taking too late. I kept on calling and messaging but he didn't respond. I became tensed. But doctor advised that I shouldn't get tensed it might affect our mini us. I sat at our door step sipping the water to ease my nerves. The climate was chill and the breeze was soothingly kissing me. Everything was same like that day, my waiting for him, his call, his message and the climate.
I was sitting in my doorstep late at night. I had to come out of my house to not feel suffocated of the whole mess. The climate was chill yet pleasing. The very thought of Kalidas loving me took me off ground. Topping that, our sensual morning mid road kiss became the headline of our Raj Nagar Street. But mainly jungkook hasn't been attending my call or messages. I thought he loved me but I guessed he didn't. He was so furious at that moment, might be a slip of emotion. Maybe he was too guilty to attend my call or to face me. In their culture a kiss might not count, would they? I slept with that thought.
Next morning I called Kalidas but he didn't pick up. And I already forgave jungkook for his action. Because it wasn't new for me of people ditching me. He must have already packed his stuffs to leave my country.
I was entering into kitchen to make myself a good coffee when I heard the calling bell. My heart beat accelerated with the familiar three consecutive bell pattern. With my shaky self I opened it to see him. My breath hitched at his sight. After my first kiss I couldn't control the spontaneous goosebumps all over my self. However upset I was with him just his single thought my body reacted in the most intimate way. I let him in getting the glimpse of some aunties' eyes on me. His face was full of guilty.
"I called you to inform you that you can stop coming here." I told in my fake normal voice folding my messy blanket. "Why?" came his calm voice after a minute. So soothing to my cyclonic emotions. "As you can see I got my feet in its perfect form. And I am fine." I heard his footsteps near me. "Are you sure about being fine?" hearing it my stomach churned at his care. Turning I jumped up and down. "See my legs are perfectly fine." his expression unreadable. "I knew your feet was fine long back. I am asking about you." I nodded not meeting his lasing eyes. "Look at me." in his dominance my everything wanted to submit. I couldn't even stand properly with his proximity and authority. With difficulty I obeyed his order. "I heard their conversations about you." he murmured looking into my light brown eyes. I couldn't control my welling tears. Sighing he pulled me to his broad chest and caged in his strong arms. Warm feeling and pure bliss collaborated. I felt safe and wanted to stay there forever if possible. "I got used to their ill talks about me. I had been adjusting it for 4 years living in this locality. They think that the single living orphan girls like me are sluts and the male friends I bring are for sex. Why don't they just get it that I do have my ethics and values of living and the men that visits me could be my friend and lo- " I stopped. " It was my fault. I am sorry. I shouldn't have Ki-" I released myself hearing him. "No, it wasn't. I know you didnt mean that kiss. I didn't take it serious either. We are still friends, don't worry." saying that I moved towards kitchen. Because the words I just spilled felt cruel to my heart in every possible way.
Breaking my thoughts I heard his horn. Smiling I went to receive my husband. But he was not in good mood. So I tailed behind him and got him a glass of water. He asked me to bring his bag from the car. I went but opening the car door my eyes widen. There were cake, gift box, bouquet at the back seat. Only then I realised it was going to be mid night. My birthday!!! He came behind me and hugged whispering happy birthday in Tamil then in Korean. It was the first birthday after our love and marriage.
It was getting colder outside so we came in. We cut the cake, my gift was a pretty Saree. He loved me wearing it while I didn't. But I could do anything for him.
"Happy First Kiss Anniversary, Hubby." I wished him applying some cake on his cheeks. Giggling he wished me the same applied some on my face too and licked it subtly capturing my lips. Slowly he kissed me unlike our first making my heart explode. I just loved him. Everything was just perfect, too perfect for my life.
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أدب الهواةLet me introduce myself first, I am Jeon Sherin, I am a daughter of an Indian but wife of a Korean. His name Jeon Jungkook, but I prefer Jeon Jackfruit, no I am not making fun of his name. I meant of his nature, thorny outside but sweet inside. For...
