Dilemma ( Discontinued )

Chapter 5

As I expected as I prayed he started to visit me daily. I didn't feel different around him though he was a Korean. I have seen many foreigners in my line of course and also in my orphanage home there were many foreign orphan children. I had a great friendship with them. Actually that was why I selected that course particularly.

Each day I felt alive around him and we became close. My house became home filled with our conversations, our laughter, our bickerings, our annoyed voice instead of just the noise of my TV, my snoring. I used my voice in my home more in that one week comparing to those 2 years I had been living there. I had no one to talk and I didn't want to talk alone. He became more of a friend to me. We played video games which he brought with him, also chess and carrom I had. We never felt bored around each other. We could have long conversation at any topic we picked. He told he had never gotten close with any girls. That made me feel special. My leg was getting better. I was getting better unknowingly. I smiled a lot even my cheekbones started to hurt. He always took care of my leg, took care of me. I felt genuinely cared, of course Kalidas cared about me but he teased/irritated more unlike Jungkook. Though I knew it wasn't permanent I started to depend on him more physically and emotionally. He was like my best friend, amma, appa and even boyfriend. Kalidas started to call me daily. I talked with him once Jungkook leave since he didn't know about Jungkook visiting me. And I didn't want him to know and spoil it in the name of protective best friend. Eventually I would reveal since Kalidas was my only relation.

"Where is your parent? " Jungkook asked me suddenly one day. "Are you living by yourself? But in your culture they won't allow, right? " using my silence he shot questions by questions. In return I just smiled. He became confused and looked around the house to look for any sign of my parents. He looked at me with shock I nodded. " Brought up in an Orphanage home. " I told smiling and stood to go when he held me and hugged. I never hugged anyone. Even Kalidas tried a lot to tease me but I kick his ass. Still I couldn't avoid his hug, I just couldn't, "Hey, it's nothing. I don't feel pathetic about that." I told wriggling to get out of his warm arms though it made me feel safe. I was controlling my tears. " I know, you iron lady. It's just I miss my parents." I knew he just wanted to comfort me. And I needed one. Let the hell break loose. I cried, cried, cried. I never cried in front of anyone. I didn't want to show anyone my weakness. Anytime people would use them against us and I had no one to defend me other than myself and my best friend. Jungkook was the first one to make laugh a lot and cry without the fear of judgement. Because I never shown this side of me even to Kalidas. I was always the strong one to others though I wasn't. "I never thought you would cry this much just because I miss my parents." he told wiping off my tears. I laughed. But when I asked about his parents he diverted me. So I let that go. That day he stayed a bit longer knowing my longing for someone to stay.

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After two days it was raining heavily and he came drenched. He was shivering. It was a sudden rain so neither did he wear raincoat nor bring umbrella. I gave him my lose t-shirt and sweat pant to change. It was in green and blue combo my favourite. But he looked cute in it. Always he would be wearing black, grey, white, deep Blue, all the dark colors which would go great with his blue hair.

I dried his hair standing in front of him while he was sitting in the bed. He was still shivering. Suddenly he hugged me by waist I flinched, my heartbeat accelerated. Since the day he comforted me I got these weird feelings often. Whenever he smiled, teased, fought with me even when he looked at my directions I felt my heartbeat increase and my breath shallow as if I was about to die. " W-what happened?" I asked first time stuttering in my life. He made me to. "Feeling cold." he told slowly burying himself in my stomach. That made my ferocious heartbeat vicious. I dried his hair well and covered him in 2 thick blankets. I made him a spicy vegetables soup with pepper at peak. He drank it. He was watching some news and sports. I plucked some Tulasi leaves and Karpooravalli leaves from my kitchen garden and made a decoction for him to not catch cold and fever. He didn't like it but I forced him to. He slept peacefully after that. He was so cute when he was sleeping. But he gave a tough boy vibe while he took care of me.