Kayla's POV
I doubled back and it was definitely another stud with Sam, so me being me I walked over to where they were..
"who's this babe?" I said putting my arm around her looking ole girl up and down, she slightly moved my arm, "Chyna this is KP, KP this is Chyna"
"mm, so where the girls at?" she looked at me crazy then started laughing, "their in PINK, I know you didn't come over here because you thought I was with another girl" Chyna slightly chuckled and it got me hot
"let's go Sam" I started walking and noticed she wasn't following up behind me, so I turned around and walked back to her, "mamas I said let's go" I said grabbing her arm, "yo chill, she not ready to leave obvious-" I cut her off talking to Sam, "Samaria, can you come home with me?" she looked at me then at Chyna, "I'm good, I'm chilling with the girls & btw Chyna is just a friend of you were feeling any type of way or uneasy" she kissed me on the cheek and walked away.
I just headed home and when I got there, surprisingly, Nicole was sitting on my porch. I hurried out the car and to her, "a-are you okay" I stammered a little, fuck I'm nervous. "I'm fine, I stopped by to have a talk with you", "i-um okay, sure" I unlocked the door and headed to my room but she stopped at the living room, "no ma'am, we're talking anywhere BUT your room" I walked back towards her and sat down on the couch, "alright, not in my room, what's up?", "okay, so first and foremost, I thought I was over you and gotten the closure I needed and deserved but in reality it didn't do anything but break me even more honestly. It's stopping me from allowing myself to love someone else and let someone else love me. So I came here to tell you to stop texting me, stop "butt dialing" me, stop spamming me on social media, everything. It's doing nothing but reminding me of you"
"wait is this about that Jasmine bitch? you must really love her" I won't lie to you, I'm definitely holding my tears back, she looked at me giving me a straight face all I could do was nod, "well thanks for letting me know, i'll leave you alone for good Nicole" I got up and headed to the door, she stopped in front of me and stared at me, "KP I never said I love her but I want to allow myself to at least have love for someone and for someone to love me without thinking their gonna hurt me" she walked away and I closed the door collapsing on the floor.
I didn't know how or what to feel, I love Samaria but I can't deny the fact that I'm still in love with Nicole. I don't deserve Sam but I want a fresh start but then again I fucking love NIcole.
SAMARIA'S POV
I was pulling up to Kayla's house blasting summer walker until I couldn't believe my eyes, I turned my music down and put my car into park to make sure I'm seeing this shit right. I looked closely to see who the girl was AND IT WAS HER EX NICOLE, I yelled on the inside and took a deep breath and waited until she left to pull in the driveway.
After what felt like forever, she finally pulled off, I pulled in the driveway and went inside the house to see this motherfucker crying. I couldn't even keep my laugh in, she heard me and looked up at me teary eyed, "your first love must've broke your heart for real this time, huh? I know you been texting her KP and I also know that she's been curving you too. It's one thing to try to get your 'bitch' back but getting curved while doing it? beyond me love." she stood up and walked closer to me
"you think this shit funny? yea I have been texting her, yea I been trying to talk to her etcetera etcetera but I never once not love you or have love for you. I just needed a little bit of clarity man" I looked her up and down, "KP I'm not built to be going through this, I actually love you and care about you, I don't deserve none of this shit" I felt my eyes getting watery and wiped them immediately, "I need some time to think, I'm going home" I went upstairs to pack a few things and came back down, I looked at her one last time hoping she'd say something that'll make me stay but I got nothing.. I put my things in the car and headed home.
When I got home I broke down so bad, I felt used and just plain hurt. I wiped my face, looked in the mirror and repeated my daily affirmations, grabbed my phone and blocked KP's number, twitter and instagram. Hooked my phone up to the Bluetooth and blasted On My Own by Tink over and over while doing my hair and makeup, I love myself too much to sit around and cry so I'm going out and doing ME.
