Conflicted (H.S)

Chapter 10

*WANRING: SENSITIVE CONTENT*

After I’d finally calmed down and the water had began to rapidly cool, Harry and I exited the shower and made our way into my bedroom. Changing out of my wet clothes and into my pyjamas, I grabbed a t-shirt, a pair of boxers, and some sweatpants from one of the suitcases filled with Jesse clothes to give to Harry.

Taking them gratefully, Harry quickly changed and came over to me, placing his hands firmly around my waist. As I sighed, thinking of the events that just took place in the last few hours. Harry turned me around so that we were facing each other. Harry’s features were heavily laced with worry and remorse. I placed my hands on Harry’s chest, looking up into his deep, emerald eyes. Quickly scanning over his features, I noticed a faint purplish colour engulfing the skin around his right eye. Slowly raising my hand, I ghosted my thumb over the injured area. As Harry flinched away from my touch, guilt washed over me at the realisation that his injury was my fault.

“I’m so so-“ my apology was cut off as Harry’s lips firmly found my own. His kiss sent butterflies flying throughout my stomach, despite the fact that I knew he only did it to shut my up. As Harry slowly released my lips, his forehead rested on my own and our gazes locked.

“Kira, don’t you dare apologise for that scumbag!” Harry took a deep breath, trying to keep himself calm, “I’m just glad I came back to give you your phone, I don’t know if I would be able to forgive myself knowing you were alone with him.”

I felt the tears straining for release. I couldn’t believe he did that again, I thought he was different.

Harry took my hand in his own guiding me to my bed.  I was positioned in between Harry’s legs with my back firmly against his torso and his arm firmly around my waist. We laid in each other’s embrace more for what felt like forever, neither of us said a word. We just sat in complete silence playing with each other’s hands.

“I think we should call the police.”

Once those words left Harry’s mouth, I tensed as I remember similar words wanting to leave my mouth many months ago. The thought of calling the police made me shiver, I knew it’s the right thing but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Harry’s hand left my own, turning me slightly so we could see each other’s expressions.

“Harry, I can-“ The sharp breath Harry had taken stopped me from completing my sentence, I could see the anger filling his eyes again, knowing what I was going to say. 

Though gritted teeth Harry replied, “What do you mean we can’t? He was assaulting you! If I hadn’t of shown up when I did, who knows what would have happened?”

Immediately after these words left his mouth, I broke down remembering all the times this had happened before. I couldn’t stop the countless tears leaving my eyes, I started to tremble with fear, remembering all of the physical and emotional damage Jesse had caused me over the years.

~Flashback~
“Jesse I’m home!”

I called out, happy to finally be home after my weekend away with the girls. I loved them like sisters but I secretly hated them sometimes.  The house felt like it was deserted, I could only hear the sound of the clock hanging on the wall beside me. I would have sworn Jesse would be watching football right now.

Not wanting to waste a minute of compete silence, I walked into the kitchen craving popcorn and a movie.

Once the smell the freshly cooked popcorn filled the house, I walked into the living room, trying to pick a movie was always difficult for me because I never knew what I was in the mood for. After minutes of searching, I reached for ‘Remember Me’.

I could feel myself slowly starting to get sleepy when the movie was reaching the end. A loud slam of the front door awoke my nearly sleeping body. I saw a dark figure enter the room with a bottle of whisky in his right hand.

“Look! The bitch finally chose to come back,” the man spat, still in the shadow and not letting me see his face, but I already knew whom it was. Jesse. His words confused me so I sat still, weary of his next move.

“Oh Kira, Kira, Kira… You think I’m that clueless, or what?” After Jesse said this I could see him taking large strides to where I was seated. I fearfully glanced up to see Jesse’s eyes bloodshot with bags underneath them. I wasn’t going to say a word, frightened of what he might do.

I could see in his eyes he wanted an answer, but I still hadn’t replied.

Seconds later, he pulled my up by my hair to stand in front of him. I screamed as the pain from my hair being yanked gained even more of my attention.

“Wow, never thought I’d see the day. You can actually shut up!”

Jesse’s voice started to rise as he got angrier and angrier, but I couldn’t move or speak. I was paralysed, completely frightened by what he might do. Looking up to Jesse with pleading watery eyes, all he could do was spit in my face and throw the half empty bottle at the wall beside me. Hearing the glass smash behind me made me jump, afraid that some of the shards might hit my body. Jesse brought his hand up to my cheek lightly stroking his thumb across a tear that fell from my eyes.

“A slut like you shouldn’t cry,”

I could see pain behind all the anger that was built up inside him. I could feel the first words escape my mouth, “Jesse, what are-“ before I could ask my question, I felt Jesse’s hand remove itself from my cheek, only to come back mere seconds later and harshly clap against my skin and my face was forced to the side by the sudden impact.

“I can’t believe you would do that, you fucking bitch!”

I was too caught up in the burning sensation in my cheek to notice that Jesse was getting more and more furious. Jesse started to pace back and forth in front of me. I took his distraction as an opportunity to sprint towards the front door. Turing the handle, I felt two hands constrict around my waist. I screamed as he started to pull me back inside and threw me to the floor of our living room.

I was silenced as the sudden force of his boot making contact with my stomach, pain coursing through my veins.

“Oh sweetie, you shouldn’t have done that.”

The pain was unbearable; no sound leaving my mouth.  I was in an absolute state of panic, fearing for my life. I felt his bot repetitively strike my stomach, fuelling the sharp, pulsing pain flow through me.

My eyes screwed shut as the pain became tremendous, my mind becoming fuzzy and hazy. As I began to pass out from the pain, I heard Jesse call out to me, “If you ever, and I mean ever, tell anyone about this, I will make your life hell, do you understand?”

A/N: WE ARE SO SORRY FOR THE REALLY LATE UPDATE! ITS MAINLY MY FAULT BECAUSE YEAR 12 CAN BE A BITCH. 

ITS 2:15AM, AND KIRA AND I JUST GOT BACK FROM OUR BEST FRIEND'S 18TH BIRTHDAY PARTY, SO APOLOGIES FOR ANY TYPOS AND A SHOUTOUT TO BIANCA AND HER PARTY (YES YOU CAN HAVE SHOUTOUTS TO PARTIES BECAUSE WE SAY SO).