3:00 in the Morning

The problem

TW: sex•blood•death
   "Alex, what is the problem," you ask? "Nothing y/n," he says then storms off of the tour bus. "Alex come back," you scream. "You motherfucker you're really going to make me chase after you in the rain," you shout. After you reach him he grabs you and kisses you deeply. "As much as I love kissing you can you please come inside, and explain what's wrong," you question? He kisses you and leads you back on the tour bus.
"Tell me what's wrong right now, I'm not blind Alex I can't tell when something's up," you say. "Y/n my band wants me to break up with you," he says. "Ok and what do you want Alex," you demand. "I want you," he says. "Then I don't see the problem," you say grinning. "I know what that smile means," he says. "Then you know what to do," you say. He starts to pull your shorts off with his teeth. Then your underwear. He pushes you on the bed then gets on top of you. He inserts himself in you and goes harder and harder every time your legs buckled. "You better not cum in tell I tell you so," he grunts. "I can't hold it no more," you shout. "Wait one more minute I'm almost there," he shouts. He cums and pulls out of you allowing you to cum. He sits you up and massages your whole body. "Omg that's better than sex," you laugh. He playfully hits you. You fall asleep in his arms.
       You wake up and scream. "Y/n what's wrong," he says. He looks down and sees the pool of blood you're laying in. "No no no it can't be," you cry. He holds you tight and calls 911. You pass out and wake up at the hospital. You look over and see Alex silently crying. "Alex is the baby ok," you say worriedly. He looks at you saying nothing. By the look in his eyes, you know what that means. You start to cry. Alex comes running over and hugs you tight. "Alex we were so close just 3 more months," you cry. "I know baby I'm so sorry," he plants a kiss on your head. After delivering the baby you fall asleep.
        You wake up to see Alex is gone. You start to panic and see that he was just in the bathroom. "Did the doctor say when we could leave," you question? "The doctor said he would come in when you woke up," he pauses, "if you're fine he will discharge you," he says. "He says our baby was a girl," he attempts to smile. You smile at him with tears in your eyes. You always thought the day you were going to the hospital was going to be painful, but you were thinking of a different type of pain. "I'll go get the doctor," he says. You look on your phone just see messages from your mother saying, "that baby will have a terrible life with a father like that," and, "that poor baby I wish you would give it up for adoption so it has a chance of a good life," your mother says. Reading these messages makes you break down and throw your phone across the room. Hearing a crash a nurse runs into the room. "Are you ok sweetie," you ask? "Oh sweetie I'm so sorry," she says as she comes over and hugs you. She kisses you on the forehead and walks away. "Hello Ms. Y/n I would just like to say I'm very sorry for your loss and second it looks like you're good to go," he says smiling. "Thank you, Dr. Darren," you attempt to smile.
Alex drives you home and you sit in silence the whole ride. Alex looks like he wants to say something but can't bring himself to it. You look out the window tears streaming down your face. Is it something I did? Was it because I didn't follow the rules. Become a lawyer, doctor, or even an owner of a restaurant like I always said I would. I was halfway there with this baby and that dream. "Y/n I'm so sorry we're not home," he says. "It's not your fault," you try to say without your voice cracking. "I should've never continued this tour while you were pregnant," he says. "It's ok," I say. "Let's talk about this later ok," I say. We get to the tour bus and drive home.
        "You want me to sleepover," he asks? "No, I think I need to be by myself," I say. "Ok I love you," he says. "I love you too," I attempt to smile. As soon as I close the door I see all of our baby's stuff. She was going to be home in 3 months. What did I do to deserve this? I just wanted to bring my baby girl home. you sink to the floor and sob uncontrollably. you go hop in the shower to take a much-needed shower. you somehow fall asleep and dream about your baby girl. You see her beautiful smile and in some way, it brings you peace. You wake up from your house phone ringing. It's mom. You let it go to voicemail. "Y/n I'm so sorry hon-," it says before you turn it off. "That fucking bitch," you say.