Why do you love me? | TSUKIHINA

misunderstood part 4.

sorry i haven't been updating much i totally forgot about this story sorry. ive been really busy with assignments and homework and australias in lockdown AGAIN, so might have a bit more time to write. before i start i wanna give a trigger warning to self harm and cuts. i will tell you where the trigger is and feel free to skip past there. i also changed the name of the chapter because i feel like this fit better. anyways, enjoy!!

hinatas pov

so here i am. in the most awkward practice session i have ever experienced. and ive had practice sessions with people who've never even heard of the sport before.

"okay so we have the first match of the interhigh tournament in 2 months. we're playing against tokonami high but it shouldn't be a problem. we just need kageyama and uhhh.. hinata do to their thing." daichis voice softened a little bit when he said my name. it was clear that he was upset with me. i just couldn't tell why.

"im not setting for hinata anymore," kageyama blurted out from out of nowhere. kageyama was never the type to let feelings get in the way of volleyball so everyone was absolutely shocked. they were all thinking of possibilities to what i had done that was so wrong that made my boyfriend so mad at me, but apparently nishinoys-san already knew the answer. 

"yeah after he ditched all for the SECOND time at his birthday party that we worked hard for i don't blame you," oh so that's what they were mad at me for. what nishinoya-san really hurt but what made it worse was that he wasn't wrong, but at the same time it wasn't really my fault. sure it was my fault for not being good enough but kageyama is- was my boyfriend. he should think the opposite or at least tell me that he doesnt like me anymore. 

"it's not his fault that kageyama chea-," i lightly hit tsukishima in the thigh to indicate that i wasn't ready to tell them team.

"hmm? what did kageyama do?" daichi questioned genuinely curious on what hinata's excuse was and why tsukishima was standing up for him. 

"nothing," tsukishima mumbled just loud enough for everyone else to hear. 

sugawara, who was determined to solve everything starting questioning kageyama. "why dont you wanna set for hinata? arent you guys dating? or did you guys have a fight or."

"no i just dont wanna set for him."

"come on you can tell us. if you tell us maybe we can solve this fight your having."

"fuck it i cant do this anymore," tsukishima suddenly spat out. "kageyama ch-,"

"omg tsukishima i told you not to tell them why dont you get it?" i abruptly stood up and stormed out of the gym to get some fresh air. all this drama was starting to get stressful. i wasnt really mad at tsukishima, although it seemed like it. its everything was getting to me. i know that kageyama was in the wrong here but i couldnt risk the tension tearing the team apart. plus if everyone else gets mad at kageyama he might feel threatened and leave, and that would be bad for karasuno, because lets admit it, hes one of the best players on the team. 

tsukishima's pov

"ugh there goes hinata, running away from his problems once again," tanaka said. when thinking about noya and tanaka, ive always deemed the duo as - other than obnoxiously loud - pretty nice, except when it came to kiyoko of course. so when i heard tanaka say this, in addition to nishinoya's comment before it surprised me but also filled me with rage. 

"maybe if you didnt make assumptions and thought before you spoke, hinata would be running away from you guys considering you two seem to be the problem," i spoke without thinking which basically contradicted my own statement but i didnt care and it showed. "oh wait nevermind. ill let you guys go this time since youre a little be disadvantaged."