Confusion [ hanma x reader ]

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y/n finally got the permission to visit hanma in the prison
she waited patiently for her name to be called

"y/n! your request are approved you can visit now"

she ran into the room and sit at the table , nervously waiting for hanma to came , wishing it was a dream

"here get in"
y/n look towards the door

"y/n?"
hanma questioned , his face shows that he's worried
"you're healed!" he smiled and sit at the table quickly
"I'm glad you're okay , i was worried if anything happened to you i-"

"why? hanma why are you here? why're you surrending yourself?" she cutted off his conversation , y/n's eyes is blurry as she was holding back her tears

"i deserved this y/n , this is the punishment for the sins I've committed" he comforted y/n while smiling , he puts his hands on the window that separated both of them
"put your hands on mine"

y/n followed what hanma told her to

"I'm sorry , you can live your life peacefully now , haruka will take you back to nagoya . no need to be worry about me . this is where i belong"
"I'm sorry y/n"

y/n can't help but cry , why is she crying it's true that he actually deserved it but why?

"why are you crying y/n? you miss me that much? this week is my final week , i think haruka already told you about that right?"

"yeah.." she replied while shedding tears making her stuttered her words out
"but why you have to...do this? i just left the hospital and you.."

"y/n , one day tell your kids about me will you? but don't tell them that i am an assassin , tell them that I'm a hero" he giggled at his own words

"can't you just stop joking here?"

"haha , sorry"

"the times is running hurry up the other visitor wants to use this room" the police barged into them ignoring their conversation

"hanma please this is not real , just say that you're not the one who killed them , we can go and ran across tokyo again"

"y/n , thank you" he left an innocent smile on his face never pulling his hands off the window

"no , what are you saying"

"your sandwiches tasted the same as my mom's"

"hanma shuji , time is up , you need to go back your cell now" they walk into him grabbing his hands trying to take him

"i love you" he smiled before he walked away

"i love you too" y/n screamed and smiled back at hanma , obviously while crying

noticing the scream hanma looked back at
her
she can see his face holding back tears as he walks , he smiled and tears dropping from his eyes
the moment become a slow motion in y/n's eyes
it's...ending

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•4 months later

it's snowing , kids are throwing snowballs to each other , the view that she can see from a cafe , drinking a hot chocolate , the feeling is so good , nothing can beat that

after she's done drinking she walked slowly pass the building , she stopped when she arrives at her apartment , taking an elevator to the 5th floor

walking into her house and closed the door , entering her room and took out a jar full of airplanes origami
she took one paper and write something on it

she folded the paper into the same origami and puts it in the jar , it's always been like that since hanma was gone , she did that everyday . she put the jar on the table , the table have a lots of the jar like 6 of them , she look outside the window , it's so cold .

"i was hoping to celebrate christmas together"

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-day 151

it's snowing , you know haruka called me today and he said he's going on a date haha didn't know mf would pull any girl , anyways there's this cat that i met earlier in my way home it's so cute but it was my neighbor's cat , i wanted to pet him so bad . I drink a hot chocolate in the cafe . I've made myself a sandwich as breakfast and it's tuna sandwich , your favourite . I'm thinking of what i should make for dinner , should i cook some ramen? anyways merry christmas hanma , it's almost new year . you told me to tell my kids about you right? , i will , I'll promise

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y/n continues her life as a normal student , she still can't move on from him , her dreams never forgot to include him
she sometimes dreamed that they finally have an happy ending together , dreams .

they both loved each other , but sadly the fates didn't

[actually this story should have a happy ending , but i just feel like one of them should die lmfao . Thanks for reading this crap , I'm sorry if there's any mistake or something that makes you confused abt the storyline anyways it's 'confusion' after all]