Its Him

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I still like Jacob and I really think you guys already know that but you don't know how I feel about him he was the best thing that ever I mean EVER happened to me and I don't even know what to think now that we broke up it depresses me I always get up thinking that on that very day he will want to date me again. I really think well Isaac didn't like us being together and I have a really bad feeling that he is the one keeping us apart and I don't like it one bit. Jacob and I have been through so many memories that I got so attached I thought I would die if anything would happen to him and it would defiantly change the way I live. I know he still likes me its obvious because when we were dating he would always look at me in reading when I was in language arts one day and he was in reading he looked at me the whole time and smiled well obviously I did too but he had this serious smile like really serious and he never dose that for any one els.
In September before we broke up I was going to join band and he was the trumpet player and I was going to be one too but I really didn't want to my mom thought it would be fun after Jacob found out he wouldn't stop saying "I'm going to drag you if you don't come!" It made me feel like he was really attached to me and I really think since he was mad at me for a while that he was praying that we would get back together because he would always walk by me in the hall and give me this strange look that he had never given anyone before as far as I know and it made me feel bad and then when we did break up I went to study hall and I cried and cried when the bell rang I didn't want to leave the class room because he would go out there I felt trapped and I still do.
I always pray that we get back together because I don't think I can leave this world thinking that oh I dated someone that I really really really a million times really liked the boy that I fell in love with and didn't tell him I mean I do show it and so does he but I want to be with him forever until the day I die but I don't think that will happen but it is worth trying and I will try hard!

The is for reading! Please if you guys have any ideas for getting back together I will make it up to you if it works comment and rate bye! that litre is me one the first day of school!