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11:11 AM

Alesso:
Random
But are you happy?

Sachi:
I'm not sure?
Haha

Alesso:
Why?

Sachi:
I mean this year
I've been through a lot
Para akong nasa rollercoaster
Maybe I'm happy
But you know
Happy but not yet contented

Alesso:
I see
It's okay to not feel happy

Sachi:
What about you?
Are you happy?

Alesso:
I'm not
Maybe not yet
But I'm contented, you know?
I'm fine with not feeling happy at all

Sachi:
Why?

Alesso:
Because everytime I feel happy
Something bad happens next
It's like the world is conspiring against me
It doesn't want me to be happy 😅

Sachi:
Maybe you just feel that way
But in reality, it's nothing like that
Things happen for a reason
Do you believe in that?

Alesso:
I used to believe in that before
But now? I don't know anymore
If things happen for a reason
Then fuck those reasons

Sachi:
"The best is yet to come."
So everything that's happening in your life is preparing
you for something that is yet to come :)

Alesso:
The best is already gone
You know what they call me?
They call me sayang
Because I threw away all great opportunities
I rejected every offer I got to play
I rejected everything
Just so I can continue studying medicine
But then sometimes I wonder what the hell am I here for?
Why am I still here when there's no one left to save?

Sachi:
Opportunities are never lost, Alesso
You create them
At hindi ka sayang
It's not a waste if you did what you think was right and if you followed your heart, what you truly wanted
You're not a waste
You're still there because that's your dream
That's where you're meant to be
You're just having a hard time admitting it to yourself
Kasi akala mo kaya ka nandyan kasi napilitan ka lang
noon dahil sa kapatid mo, pero wala na siya.
At kahit wala na siya
Nanatili ka pa rin
Kasi nandyan na ang puso mo
Yan talaga ang gusto mo
Kaya hindi ka sayang

Alesso:
Or maybe I'm still here because I'm guilty for my sister's death, not because this is what I wanted

Sachi:
You don't have to feel guilty over things
you have no control of :(

Alesso:
Since I was a child
It's been my dream to play internationally
Basketball's my passion
Just like your brother
And my other friends
It's what made us close
And when I had to choose between continuing to med school or accepting the offers I got from different associations, it just felt like I had to choose to continue studying even when my heart kept on telling me that playing is my passion.
That I should choose basketball
But I chose to continue
Because I feel guilty
And I feel like this is the only way to make it up to her
To make up for... everything

Sachi:
What really happened?

Alesso:
It's a long story
One you wouldn't want to hear

Sachi:
It's okay if you're still not ready
But if ever you need someone to talk to
Or even just listen
I'm here, okay?

Alesso:
Okay :)

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