THE ESCAPISM (OLD)

Lost - Kiara

I sat there for a while, the room was so bright it hurt. But I couldn't leave her yet, that wouldn't be right for everything she did for me.
I sat there crying thinking about it all. Nova...she was so great...why did she want to...
I remembered how she talked about her friends being gone.

She was all alone.

I sat there for who knows how long. I was sad. Upset. Just, I wasn't ok.
We could have escaped together... she wouldn't have been alone...

I stood up, wiping the tears off my face. I covered my face in my hands...God, why was it so bright? Ah...

I felt my thumb touch my left ear, I felt my mom's earring... haha, they were the same. Nova was like my mom basically, which is why I couldn't bear to lose her huh...she just reminded me of her.

I took off the left earring and looked at it.
It was a heart with a gold outline and pink gems of sorts on the inside.
Hm... I looked at the pit where Nova's body lay.
I took a deep breath before tossing the left earring in...it took a lot but...it was like putting flowers on her grave but it would stick with me, in the right ear.

I looked at the door...it was time to go...

I pushed it open, to feel the rain on my body. in front of me was a ravine-like the one before but there was a bridge across it.

What a sick joke.

I turned and saw 3 other doors away from the one I was coming out of.
Were these the same-? Are there other people here?
I shook my head, and just assumed so. The doors were a ways away and I didn't feel like I could walk all that way just to check my theory.

I looked back to the bridge. It was a way across, it was so simple, unlike the swing, where you had to be so careful as to not fall.
Then I remembered.
They could have just...done this...so that last room? Was just. . .
It was a challenge I won... and Nova lost.. and as punishment... she died...

"You piece of Sh*t!" I screamed at the top of my lungs looking into the gray sky as the water fell onto my face.
I was shaking with anger. I just... I don't know what came to me but I just started running. I didn't want to be there anymore.

It was empty for a while while I was running until I came onto the outskirts of a town...I slowed down looking around a bit...wait there was uh...a home-looking building with a light on?!

Other people...

I went over to it and stopped. I put my fist on the door and put my head on it... I was so out of breath...and just...tired... gah..no...you can't..not yet

I jerked the door open, with rain still pouring down behind me. I saw 3 people... first was a green-haired boy on a couch with a gray carpet underneath, a redhead was Sitting beside him looking at me in surprise.
And...
Sitting at the counter was my brother...

"Jay..." I said weakly as my legs gave out from below me.
"KIARA!" He came up under me and held me up.
"Ah...good to see your ok..." I felt like I was going to pass out,
"Kiara you'll be ok. It's ok, don't feel like you need to stay awake,"
Ah...
He carried me into another room as I drifted off.
"Gah, you're soaked," he said laying me in a bed,
"Haha...sorry..."
He gave me a light smile, one I hadn't seen in a while.
I felt so tired yet... when he left the room and shut the door, I couldn't help but stare up at the ceiling.

I felt my right ear.
I lay in my mom's lap as she strokes my hair. So peaceful...I felt as if butterflies were floating around, and the darkroom was more than that, there were flowers, and it was warm.
Ah,
It was ok to sleep now right?
Hmm...
I lay in my dream, where everything was ok. It was solitude. My place. No death. Or sadness. Just for me.

...
How selfish...