Forever Cursed

Chapter 2

Maybe i was a bit too dramatic by making a big deal out of my goal to live a normal human life, coming off as if werewolves don't interact with humans at all. Not true. To survive, most werewolves live in the human world. The humans provides food, shelter, sex and other needs. And if you come up short with joining a pack, you have no other choice. Despite that werewolves interact with the human world, they don't consider themselves to be a part of it in any way. Heck! Most think human interaction is a necessary danger to take. They are all actors playing rolls and even though sometimes they find the stage amusing, everyone is pretty relieved to get off it. I didn't want to become that. I didn't want to become an actor, i just want to live in the human world and as much as i can....be me throughout it. I didn't choose this life! And like hell I'm going to just..give in to it! Letting go of every dream of my future i ever had, a career, a family, a home and above all else...stability. None of that was achievable as a werewolf.

I grew up in an orphanage. A bad orphanage. Having no family as child, i was pretty determined to making one of my own. Becoming a werewolf pretty much took that plan and shot it into the atmosphere. But...even though a husband and children were out the question, that didn't mean a career was. And i was doing it. Having my career in photography was working out great! Also with Jimin in my life i could kind of have a family. A none traditional one but i think it still counts? Plus we've been together long enough now that I'm starting to believe that some stability in my life was actually possible. I'm a temperamental, argumentative and emotional women and i just could not believe my LUCK when i found someone as normal and kind as Jimin. Of course i don't always act that way around Jimin, i like to keep that part of me - the werewolf part - hidden to the best of my abilities. With Jimin I had a chance to become someone I actually wanted to be. The pack didn't understand that.

They didn't understand why i wanted this so much, they couldn't understand because they weren't like me. I wasn't born a werewolf, i was created. 95% of werewolves are born half bloods and are raised in they lifestyle and will eventually experience their first change. 5% are me...created by accident. A very few humans can survive a bite, and werewolves are neither stupid or benevolent. If they bite, they intend to kill you, and if they fail well...they stalk you until your finished off. It's a simple matter of survival really. Let me put it this way. If your a werewolf that settled down comfortably in a human town or city, the last thing you need is a half- insane, blood thirsty new wolf running around your territory killing people right? And even if a human escapes, survival is minimal. The first few changes are hell, if they don't die from the physical stress they will die from the mental stress, driving them to either kill them selves or draw enough attention that another werewolf comes along and kills them.

And since the gene is passed down from farther to son, the only way for a women to become a werewolf is to be bitten and survive. Guess what make me sooooo special, i just happen to be the only female werewolf. What are the odds? Amazing really, that I survived. After all, when you put a species with nine dozen males and one female, that one female becomes something of a prize. And werewolves do not settle their battles over a game of Mario kart. Nor do they have a history of respecting women. Women have two purposes in the world of a wolf: sex and dinner. Although i doubt any wolf would dine on me, I'm an irresistible object for satisfying the..other primal urges. Left on my own i would have been screwed, fortunately I wasn't. Since i had been bitten, the pack had take care and protected me because of their society's rules. This of course had nothing to do with me but everything to do with the person who did turn me. A year ago i cut myself off and was not going back, giving the choice between human and werewolf. I had picked human.

Jimin's and i routine didn't change much. He was mostly at work and always over worked himself, my work schedule was flexible and i made my own hours as i went. Expecting Jimin's  I'll be late phone call i sat down watching tv, but to my surprise the front door sung open revealing him carrying multiple bags of dinner. "I hope your hungry, i picked up some takeout on the way home!" he said while placing the food onto the table. Although i had already eaten and apple and bag of chips i was still starving. Just one of the many great things about being a werewolf...a big appetite. Jimin mostly talked about work and the project they were working on as we ate, he also apologised once again for leaving me stranded at his mother's house and promise to make it up to me. We ended the conversation with a few jokes as we were cleaning up dinner and soon enough he was off to the fitness centre downstairs like alway. For the first few months of us living together we went to the gym together, but acting like its hard to do curls with light weights became a little risky when i got caught up in conversation...and picked up the wrong dumb bell. After that i told jimin some story that i was going to take advantage of the gym being empty late at night and that's why I changed when i wanted to workout. He bought it and told me to stay safe and call him if i was ever in trouble.

I of course i tried to go back to my tv shows, but an ad for the news clearly had to show it's self first. "On today's late night news, a man guilty of the deaths of 3 women has escaped from jail earlier today"  Jesus Christ... and people always thought that werewolves are monsters. To be honest, the truth is that if a werewolf was to act like that psycho it wouldn't be because he was part wolf...it would be because his still too human. Name one animal that kills something for the thrill to see it die. Only humans kills for sport. Later on Jimin had come back "good workout babe?" I asked "when is working out ever good?" He chuckled while taking a bottle of water from the fridge and drinking it. "I can't wait for the day someone makes a pill or drink to replace working out, I'm getting to old for this crap" he complained as he walked over and gave me a kiss on the forehead " ew, you stink. Go shower" i tease as watch him walk toward our bathroom and mimic my voice jokingly. Hearing the water turn on i get up and to the kitchen for yet another snack without him knowing when the phone rang, i ignored it. Eating was way more important to me and Jimin couldn't hear it since he had the water running, or so i thought. The water had shut off and i quickly hid my snack trying to make it seem as if i was just busy when it rang. Jimin would always answer the phone no matter who call and no matter what time. I tried my best to be like him- when was around of course. A auto toned voice sang out that i was busy and couldn't make the call but politely asked them to leave a message. This one did.

"Y/N? It's Namjoon," I stopped in my tracks "Please call me. It's important" His deep voice trailed off into silence. I could hear him sigh as if wanting to say something else but clearly couldn't. "It's urgent, Y/N. You know I wouldn't call if it wasn't." Jimin reached for the phone but Namjoon had already hung up. He then proceeded to try and hand me the phone but i just walked away to the couch.
J-"Arn't you going to call back? He said it was urgent" he questioned
Y/N-"he didn't leave a number"
J-"It sounded as if he thought you already had it. Who is he anyway?"
Y/N-"Um-ah my third cousin
J-"Oh!? So my mysterious orphan does have some family, can i meet him?"
Y/N-"Haha, you wouldn't want to"

He could probably tell by my tone of voice that i wasn't up for talking about Namjoon and dropped the questions quickly. After a few minutes of silence he came and sat next to me, and placed the phone in my lap "Call him back okay". And with that he got and left to get dressed not forgetting to give me a glare that said "ill be checking on you". I sighed, i couldn't lie to him and say that i did plus it wouldn't stop Namjoon from calling back again..and again...and again until i did. I sat contemplating on what i should do but the only thing that was ringing in my head was jimin's words, and the women i wanted to be with jimin would call back. So i sat up straight and dialled the number, taking a deep breath as it rang. It only rang a few times before a recorded voice started, and not Namjoon's deep voice. But a smooth and mellow timbre voice that mad me fumble to hang up before I heard the rest of the message. I could feel the sweat on my forehead and it felt like the temperature in the apartment went up 10 degrees and held little oxygen left in. Shooting up i place the phone back on the wall and went to shower and sleep...well as best as i could.

The next day jimin asked what Namjoon wanted. I did tell him i wasn't able to get back in touch with him but that didn't stop him from buying me a plane ticket to Seoul or helping me pack a bag. I had tried for a few hours to call Namjoon back but to no avail, he or anyone else was picking up. "Still no answer huh?" Jimin asked and I shook my head, he studied my face before looking away "you're worried arn't you" "no, not really. I jus-"  "hon, it's okay. If it were my family too i would want to go check on them as well, you don't have to feel bad about this" . Over the next remaining hours before the flight I kept calling, hoping someone would answer so that i wouldn't have to go. But in the end, Jimin ended up driving me to he airport that afternoon.