infinite darkness | leon kennedy

chapter seven: defense secretary wilson

Decode - Paramore

My mom... Why her? Just because she knows what happened to me in Raccoon City? That isn't fair! She's not a threat to the feds! They only covered my story up because it made them look bad! My mom was no threat of exposing the truth! She told me she'd never speak of it with anyone! She'd only talk to me personally about it! Why couldn't the government just kill me off? Why my mom?!

People know nothing about me. I'm not Flora Smith, a survivor of Raccoon City. I'm Flora Smith, author of Raccoon City.

I think maybe I've fainted due to shock and sadness. Madness, too. The next thing I'm aware of once I've woken is my body dangling in someone's arms. Someone's carrying me. We're walking somewhere. I hear their grunts as they carry me. I open my eyes to see Leon. It's dark around us. I believe we're outside somewhere. I can hear the sounds of nature. Once my eyes have adjusted somewhat, I see the dark blue sky over his head.

"Leon." My voice is so cracky, I have to clear my throat multiple times. He looks down at me with a slight frown.

"Flora, I'm so sorry," he apologizes. "The government's a fucking joke."

"Did you not ever read my story?" I ask.

"No. I couldn't. I wanted to, though," he clarifies.

I only asked because I wanted to know if he saw the editing the government put in my book. I know my mom didn't read my book either. I told her not to. She said she didn't want to. That book is full of so many horrible things. I didn't want my mom to have to read through all of it.

"You never looked over your book to see the edits they made? You never looked your own book up?" He questions.

I bite my lip. "No. That was something I didn't want to do. After I wrote everything I just gave it away to the editors and told myself I would never look at the thing again." I thought everyone knew my story.

"I'm so sorry," he repeats to me.

"You shouldn't be sorry. It's not your fault." My poor mom. The government killed her because they knew that she knew about it all.

"I know but I wish I could take all of your pain away. Bad things keep happening to you, it's why I wish you never came." What he's says is so true but so hurtful at the same time. Part of me wishes I never came to D.C. too. I wish I could've just stayed home and waited for Leon, then I'd still be able to receive a daily call from my mother. They only now just killed her because I wouldn't be close in contact with her. They wanted me to find out about everything on my own. Fucking hell...

The death of my mother hasn't truly hit me yet. I know she's gone, but part of me thinks she'll come back. It's like when I was a kid and she'd drop me off at school... Yeah, I left her but I always knew she was going to be back to pick me up. That's how I feel right now. She's dead but I know she's going to come back when I get home... The full truth hasn't suppressed my mind and I'm not ready for it to do so. I'm forcing my mind to block any memories of her, right now I can't think about it. I don't want to cry especially since Leon and I are on a mission.

I remember shooting Jason earlier. It was such a quick reaction. I was so angry. He's a monster. He knew all along that my mother was going to die. The government killed my mom. They planned that for so long I assume.

"You know, maybe the treason was a good idea," I mumble. My arms dangle out from me. I sway almost lifelessly in Leon's arms as he continues to carry me.

"You think the government killed your mom? Wouldn't they have done that sooner? Why now?" Leon keeps his eyes straight. I'm not sure where we're going exactly but I'm sure it's somewhere important.