I felt so empty...so lost without Steve.
It's been a week since he left...since he slammed the door in my face. I haven't gone to work...I barely ate or slept. I needed him back.
Steve made me complete...I didn't feel numb anymore when I was with him.
I gave Sam all the files, he contacted his friend in the FBI and they now are taking care of it. The last thing I heard was that Hydra was getting taken down.
I had been laying in my bed all day, staring at the spot Steve used to lay in, thinking of all the memories in this room when my door opens. "Y/N?" I feel a hand tap my shoulder, "Y/N?"
"Steve?" I ask as the person pulls me up.
"It's Bucky and Nat."
"Leave me alone." I close my eyes.
"Jesus, Y/N...when was the last time you slept or took a shower?" Bucky asks
"I don't know."
"Come on...your taking a bath. And we're gonna get some food in you." I stare ahead blankly as he picks me up, Bucky carries me to my bathroom and sets me down on the counter as Nat starts the bath. Bucky then looks at me, "She knows everything." He nods. "I'm gonna help you out of your pajamas, okay?" He asks.
I don't answer as he lifts my shirt off of me. He then lifts me off the counter and pulls down my pants.
"Bath is ready." Nat nods. Bucky picks me up again and slowly puts me in the bath. "Y/N we're gonna get some clean clothes, we'll be right back." Nat rubs my head.
I hug my knees to my chest, laying my head down and staring at the water as they walk off. Steve and I took a bath here...thats when I finally figured out I was in love with him.
FLASH BACK: TWO WEEKS AGO
I was sitting in front of Steve with my back to him. He was massaging my hair with shampoo, leaning down and kissing my shoulder every so often.
I spin around and wash my hair out, sitting back up and linking my legs over his and around his waist as I scoot forward. I wrap my arms around his neck and smile, "You are so beautiful." He softly kisses me.
I knew right here...especially by the way he was looking down at me, that I loved him.
"I want you to know that....you make me incredibly happy."
"You make me so happy, Y/N. I haven't felt like this in a long time." He pecks my lips again.
"Steve...I've never felt like this before. I've never had someone like you...you make me feel alive. You make me feel wanted." I pull him in and hug him. "Thank you." I whisper. I look down as I trace on his back, tracing the words 'I Love You'
"What did you write on my back?"
"Just my name." I smile to myself, leaning back and kissing him.
END FLASHBACK
I scoot forward and lay back, slowly going underwater. I close my eyes as I hold my breath, trying to feel something other than sadness.
After a couple more seconds, I feel hands grab my shoulders and pull me up, "What the fuck are you doing!" Bucky yells.
I wipe my face and look up at him. "I wasn't going to kill myself, Bucky." I sigh.
"I don't care, don't do that." He sighs in relief. "Let me wash your hair. He sits on the side of the tub and grabs my shampoo.
"How is Steve?" I ask as he massages the shampoo in my hair.
"I don't know...he won't talk to me." He sighs.
Bucky pulls me back and washes my hair.
Once I was done and dressed, he holds onto me and leads me into the kitchen. "I made some pasta." Nat smiles.
"Thank you." I sit down and take a small bite. They both stare at me as I push around the food.
"You need to eat." Bucky points.
"I don't want to."
"I don't give a fuck, you need to eat." Bucky points.
"Bucky..." Nat whispers.
"This is all so easy for you, isn't it?" I slam my fork down.
"What?"
"Your partner didn't fucking leave you. You don't know what this feels like!" I stand up and walk to my room. I curl under my covers and stare at Steve's spot again.
Bucky and Nat come in, she lays in Steve's spot and holds onto my hand as Bucky lays behind me and puts an arm over me. "I do know how this feel. Steve was by best friend...he means everything to me."
"I'm sorry...I just can't control myself. I don't feel anything anymore."
"Don't be sorry Y/N. Bucky and I are gonna help you with anything you need. Don't worry about the Academy, you take as much time as you need off." Nat smiles.
"I want my Steve back." My lip quivers.
"I know....I know." Bucky holds into me.
The two let me cry. Both holding onto me and being there...being my friends.
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Infatuated - (Fem Reader X Steve Rogers)
Fanfiction( This story has nothing to do with the movies and includes nothing to do with powers or super soldiers. ) Y/N L/N was taken at a young age by Alexander Pierce and forced to join the notorious Gang: Hydra. You were brainwashed until the age of eight...
