A Broken curse

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The little boy was sleeping peacefully in my arms. He was so cute and it melted my heart.

I tucked him into bed. And walked out if his room. I the I remember the key. He could lock himself in my room again.

I took the key out of the door. And walked down the hallway to the living room. And I saw Karl and Sapnap chatting and laughing.

I joined them in the sofa. I found out that they was talking about Quackety new stream.

It was fun talking about it but I got slowly bored so I walked back to my room and saw the sleeping boy in my bed. I studied how he slept and the details on his face. He was so cute. His dark brown hair was messy and laying on parts of his face. (Why does this sound a bit creepy or is it just my opinion)

I looked around in the room. I should really clean this room. And George should definitely take a shower. Hmmm wait why am a thinking about that. I don't know.

I was just really in to my thoughts that I didn't realize that I was staring at George.

I snapped out of my zone.

Today was just a very hard day for me.

I was starting to feel empty. Sometimes a stroke of this would come. And today was just that day. Today it was just so overwhelming. I just felt like I was hurting everyone. And something in me snapped.

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It was late and I had waited for many hours. It was just so hard. Voices in my head telling me horrible stuff.

I walked in to the bathroom. And I broke down. I just couldn't handle this. Everything was hard and I was just hurting everyone.

A numb feeling was crawling in. And I was crying so hard. Why me. It felt like a big tower of feelings just collapsed inside of me.

And a numb feeling in my stomach started spreading around. It was so cold sitting on the bathroom floor that I moved over to the shower. I turned on the shower. I didn't even bather taking of my clothes.

The warm water was comforting. And my wall just falls apart. All the emotions I had been saving and pushing aside just floated out. Tears streaming down my face. I was shaking so hard. But lucky for me no one noticed because they were all asleep.

An hour later I left the bathroom feeling more numb than ever. I put on some fresh clothes and dumped myself in to the bed.

After a while of laying there I understood that the numbness wouldn't go away. It was cold but I was used to it. So I walked tiredly through the hallway and out the door. Trying my best to not make to much noises.

I got out the front door. A calm breeze made me shiver. My hair gently flew up and slowly fall down on my face. I took a deep breath. The cold summer air felt good in my lungs. It was beautiful here in Florida.

I walked to the closet cliff. It was just 1 min walk from the house.

I sat down. Took a deep breath and just looked at the view.

Hundred of thousand houses with a small light. It was amazing just sitting the breathing and watching over the city. But it was just what I needed. To get away from reality.

I sat there for a long time just watching and relaxing. I started to get tired but I didn't want to get back in to the house.

I started to walk slowly back. And when I got there I walked against the back. It was a beautiful grass field. It was shining by the light of the moon.

I laid down at the grass and just looked up in to the sky.I looked at all the star's. They were all shining so bright and so calming. It was like the star's were comforting me. It was amazing and calming. You could see the stars so perfectly. The moon was the so bright and beautiful. You know that It was the most beautiful view I have ever seen.

I started to relax and before I knew it I was asleep.Traveling deeper and deeper. Everything of worry and stress just flew out of the way. And I just keep going deeper and deeper. And more and more comfortable I got.

I was sleeping good for the first time in 8 years. That was just the thing I needed. The last thing I remember dreaming before I was gone in dreamland.

-800
I am sorry for using so much time.
It is just school started and I am stressed and I am not doing so good.
But I know this was a short chapter I am going to try my best to update you guys. And thank you so much for 73 readers. I really appreciate it.
Remember to eat and stay hydrated.